#11th-gem

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Fun fact I figure skated from the age of 5 to the age of 14

u have been invited in here

THANK YOU!

SHE’S HERE

My conf now has 100% more guinea pigs!

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They're swarming in!

I am excited to see you play again!

It’s been a while! A couple months at least

Which for me is A LONG TIME

I’m a tad scared about the 6 man tribe curse but we vibe!

Can’t get voted out if you never go to tribal.

true

Yooo you’re cooking 😭

I feel like this is a “oh no my diamond shoes are too shiny” type comment but I had a genuine misunderstanding about a discord notif messaged this dude and tried to apologize (I’m recruiting for world of Warcraft and happened to get added by this dude on discord but we haven’t spoken before today) and he said my misunderstanding was low key cute and I just -

I basically lost all interest in the conversation ngl

I think it’s the presumptive advancement type message that just made me completely disassociate

There’s this one dude I met during an org within 2 seconds of me joining a vc he was like “woah” and I was like 👀 what’s up? And he just goes “your voice!” And i just…don’t comprehend because all I’m doing is existing and I’m like “okay what about it” he goes “you sound like a seductress!”

I promise you nothing went uphill from there

I’ve heard before that my voice sounds like I smoke

And I’ve heard I have like a good voice? But that comment stuck with me because it was just so

what tf do I say to that???? Thank you????

I do not wish to be thankful sorry

Anyways I’m gonna keep trying to talk to this dude cause I could use some more guild members but I just don’t love where this is going already

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Trying to use all my gem sparkles to make sure these people don’t think im a flop

I fear being a flop, having a degree in flopology

you have a degree in queenology in my eyes

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Good morning Gemfessional!

Okay one thing about 6 man tribes is chat catchup is SO EASY

Good afternoon, Gem's confessional!

Stripe is here!!

I’m kind of stressed about starting with a creative challenge, I really want to avoid going to a first tribal

I will be anything but first boot if I can

Luckily my tribe seems kinda quiet 👀 my favorite kind of weather conditions

Or they all clicked instantly and have decided not to bother trying to talk to me 💀

Sometimes I’ve had that happen on a small tribe like

I’ll yap with folks and turn up my sparkle and they’ll all give nothing but somehow with each other like they just vibe like they’re all smoking marijuana and I’m on crack like we just are not the same

And I end up voted even though the tribe feels dead and I actually gave effort

Oh but drugs are bad, just a reminder for like no reason

shhh

don’t tell anyone but i’m sliding @Chelseasaurus in here too

you’re the only one who gets two

https://open.spotify.com/track/5GijeHqOg3EdrpJCOl7Qc0?si=ba424495ee694af0

imagine living long enough to see one of your favorite childhood songs get re-released

my cousin was the coolest person ever when i was a kid like

she always showed me things that i ended up remembering forever like bratz dolls and green day and she got a pet hamster so i wanted one and she watched funny videos on youtube so i thought "shoes" and "charlie the unicorn" were iconic but the thing i always loved most was music so i had this cd player and because my cousin thought some of my childhood music artists were cool i thought britney and hillary duff and nsync and the backstreet boys were cool

and my first hillary duff cd was either from the lizzie mcguire movie or metamorphasis

and on metamorphisis the first song is "so yesterday" and it's OLD like 2003 old and i wouldnt think hillary would re-record it with her more popular or newer stuff but she did and im just so happy rn

I know what I’m listening to today!

ITS ME IM HERE

I shouldn't be here

but I am

HELLO ME

I AM ALSO HERE

hi stripe

SHES HERE!!!

AND SHES STILL HERE!!

GREAT NEWS

My team isn’t going to tribal!!!

Big excite!!!

Hi, Nicole!

YAY!!!!

THAT'S GREAT NEWS

Good ole footballingsabababababababa!

This is the quality content I come to Gem’s confessional for.

see I knew you'd appreciate it

Writers won’t believe this!

word writers

There’s other kinds?!

the things you learn on a sunday

My husband says there’s also sentence and paragraph writers

Happy Pride!!

NO TRIBAL

Good afternoon, Gem’s confessional!

gems conf buddies carrying the activity

kidding!

No you’re def not kidding and honestly they probably are

I have the best besties in the whole world I will not hear any other opinions

Lemme go check on how bad my puzzle time was and then I’ll be back

well like realistically they are talking more than u but i couldnt care less ur the queen u can do what u want

ITS YOU

IT'S ME

ITS WE

Now we summon Stripe

dancing around the stripe circle

They never fail to make me laugh over literally something as simple as emojis

OMG it’s a summoning ritual!!

STRIIIIIIIPE

Would yall believe me that I didn’t even know til I checked my 1-1s a lil bit ago cause I was scared

Afraid, if you will

afeardededededed

Afearedededs

edededededededed

OH WOW MY TIME WAS SECOND BEST

Y’all I hopped out of bed at 11pm cause I got a subs message that I could do my puzzle right then rather than get a challenge extension and wait all day yesterday til I was done w work

I had laid down and put on my nighttime sleep time video, which is a shortened playlist of jacksepticeye playing resident evil 8

Yes I fall asleep to him screaming over a resident evil game mhmm I’m very normal

Very normal

Anyways

I had just turned it on and got in bed and I got the message and was like welp better go do the puzzle

IMAGINE

My surprise to find out it’s ROTATION

😭

Plus funky shaped pieces

But I locked in

Normally I go for border first

But this time I built out from the picture of the logo because the border was all white

And I knew trying to do it that way with all the funky pieces was just going to upset me

It was fun but stressful for sure

And I got the 17ish minute mark (my actual puzzle time was like 16 mins ish)

And thought oh surely I’ve just lost my tribe this portion

NOPE

We win!

1. Marissa without a doubt!
2. I say be yourself with me because I don’t like finding out someone has been fake
3. Ummmm lmao well I sure know me Marissa Void and Bree contributed!!

1. Not very? I’m trying to rewatch the show actually and I’m really loving the pacing, makes me miss when things moved more slowly
2. Well my non serious answer is that I’m Gem, which should really tell you all you need to. My serious answer is that I’m going to do what I do best which is observe. Rather than leap im going to do everything I can to know what the lay of the crowd and the lay of the land is before I potentially do too much but also I don’t wanna do too little, it’s all about balance I guess

3. Hmmm not sure yet, it seems like a secondary challenge arena for hunting? Interesting

4. Honestly I’m not sure, I came in expecting to need to do a lot and then folks are very quiet

I’m worried about it tbh

The ritual worked!!!

She’s here!!!

@Chelseasaurus it happened!

Stripe arrived!

we did it!!

This is obviously the content the specs are wanting 😂

it should be

I was watching something 90s themed recently or I was something 90s themed recently and I definitely heard someone play the Background Boys

I just can’t remember what it was, might’ve been the DMV 💀

i am currently binging HIMYM again and they just mentioned them

I started watching Twin Peaks because of this game

I tried back in like 2017 and couldn’t do it

i love Kyle MacLachlan

I wanted something faster to binge

Back then

Now I’m like yes lemme chill out lemme watch this it’ll be good

Who’s his character

Rn I’m loving the murder mystery

Mom screaming was…a lot but yknow it’s a pilot they’re throwing things at the wall

Go campy or serious

I get it

dale

NEW TRIBES

GEM STAYS ON LOVED!

I’ll keep an eye out

I do!!

GOOD MORNING GEMFESSIONAL

a lovely day in the Gemfessional!

I’m feeling a bit at a loss for being so busy, I’m feeling like my participation needs to ramp up and before Saturday I just don’t have a ton of free time

I’m seeing the Amazing Digital Circus Movie tomorrow night

And work has been crazy

c r a z y

I don't know what this is 👀

It’s a YouTube/Netflix show about people finding themselves in a digital circus world ran by an AI named Caine and it’s based on a story I have no mouth but I must scream I think, it’s about existentialism

I’m making it sound boring it’s quite fun

A bit dark but fun

ooooohhh

https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLHovnlOusNLgvAbnxluXCVB3KLj8e4QB-&si=Re2eTDeyFiVIYNff

Here you go! It is free to watch!

The final episode is being released in theaters along with a replay of episode 8 to give you the full 1.5 hour intended episode that was going to be released before it got split

@Alive Player Confessional Question: What's your thoughts on the hint posted in #treemail?

Can’t tell if it’s a poem or a riddle

me whenever i look at math

GEM WON IMMUNITY AGAIN!!!

Good morning Gemfessional!!!

I wanna answer the conf questions but also I’m like it’s Saturday leave me aloneeeee

I’ve done nothing but bed rot today

11/10 bed rotting day

I’ve showered, I’ve had leftover tacos for lunch and I somehow messed up instant potatoes

So I reheated leftover potatoes and chicken tenders for dinner with gravy and they were BOMB

Honestly by the time I was done w the instant potatoes it looked like a child trying science

I am not sure of the last time my ADHD sabotaged me this badly

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So basically what happened was I deviated from my usual plan

Usually I put a bit of water in my pot, boil it and cut the heat then add in the potatoes, add a tiddle bit of water if I need it and bam they’re done, just add some like cheddar cheese they’re good to go

Today

I decided to make them differently

I put water and the potatoes in a bowl stirred them up and popped it in the microwave

And they came out like a lil soupy? So I added cheese but I added mozzarella so now all the potatoes were like stringy and cheesy and not in a good way like clumping together bad so I added cheddar which completely fixed the problem only now there was more cheese than potatoes so I added milk and I added too much milk so now I had soup

I gave up and threw them away 😂

But like the process looked like this:
Gem: cleans a pot
Gem: fills the pot partway with water
Gem: puts pot on stove uses a different burner than usual
Gem: reads package instructions again
Gem: cleans a plastic bowl
Gem: dumps semi heated water into bowl and adds potatoes
Gem: stirs potatoes and microwaves for 3:30
You know the rest from here but like my GOD

What the hell was I thinking

Just cook the damn potatoes

Anyways I dumped $1 down the drain today along with like $3 of cheese I’ve had better moments

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I wasn’t sure if I remembered to wish happy pride, so I went back and checked

SCAVENGER HUNT

I have quite literally been sleeping since like 7pm maybe that was roughly 1.5 hours of nap and before that I was making dinner and being ill

So not the best evening for Gem

I swear if we go to tribal because my ass couldn’t get to a Walmart for being ill I will scream

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GAGGED

Yes Gem rots her brain on YouTube shorts look

Ok look

I quit TikTok because the addiction was getting out of hand

My saves, my camera roll, my TikTok was going from like quirky tumblr “no one understands me” to like full blown open book

Nothing was left to mystery

But then I deleted the TikTok app and WHERE DOES GEM FIND HERSELF you might ask????

All over YouTube shorts

Food, AI stories with beat up Honda civics (one time it was a beat up ford instead that the main character drove and oh man the Hondas were thrilled, they could finally catch a break)

And now I’m watching Disney crack content

I don’t know where I made the wrong turn

But I’m also so incredibly entertained

swag

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We’re like 10 points away from being done

And low key? Not sure we’re making it folks

Just gotta pray some other tribe couldn’t get it together

WE DID IT

WOW

@Chelseasaurus @Stripe none of these fools played chronicles and it shows 😂

I think I have genuine trauma from chronicles because I see a scavenger hunt list like this and assume if we don’t get it all we’re losing 😂

chronicles ptsd is real

Good afternoon, Gem’s confessional!

SWAP TIME!
@Alive Player, how do you feel about your new tribe? Off first impression, who sticks out to you as allies/targets and why?

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Honestly I think I got an okay swap? I’m probably near the bottom right about now

But I can fix that

Good morning, Gem’s confessional!

I’m so mad at life this week

Sorry I’ve been MIA

If it’s not one struggle it’s another

But it’s okay

I’ll get through it

First tribal of the season let’s goooooo!!!

After many many rounds of safety I finally shed one singular bead of sweat

Only to find myself pretty secure in an alliance

In situations like these I am not naive enough to believe im the one in the game with any big sway

So following the crowd was about all I could do!

And indeed it’s a strategy that rarely fails me

Offering to just go along to get along

So it came down to Tully or Corny and ngl I along w Star felt much better about Corny than Tully but

Tully made some effort and yapped a bit and we seem to be doing pretty well

I’m just not very proactive about alliances

So i’m a wee bit trapped

GEM LIVED!

Confessional Question: What would be a good confessional question to ask everybody? Maybe to get them to think about things that might help your game? @Alive Player

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY, GEM!!!

I’m so grateful for so many birthday wishes

Thank you Stripe!! 😭 🤍

That’s what they call me!

The guests have arrived!

THIS IS SO INTIMIDATING 😭 why are all my chats lit up w a new message 😭

GEM MADE MERGE!

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I did! I’m just so confused

On if I’m in deep shit or not

I’m really really hoping ppl don’t care how many OG Loved are still here

I’m not really playing by tribal lines like, if I had to vote Theo at this point for example it wouldn’t be the end of the world

Attempting to navigate to the end of the game includes the ability to adapt

I’m not aiming to run to the end of the game on an immunity streak, but outlasting includes being willing to lower my threat level at costs I can swallow

Petition…to…change…CST…to…Gem…time

My vote this round for the lodge was to try and keep someone safe from being the vote even if it makes me an option I’m self sacrificing that way if I have the capability to save someone else if I can help them get further I’d want to do so

It’s not a very winning kind of strategy but it’s not always possible to be the winner

So I have to also take measures to assist other people that I’d like to see win if I can

As a backup plan

For fucks sake I hate this

I hate it I hate it I hate it

I blew up my old position and now I’m uncertain where I’m at

I feel like in my old spot I was idling and was probably going to be tossed away at some point

But now I feel like I’m overplaying

Fuck

No no warm welcomes I was much happier when I didn’t have to factor her in

Fuck fuck fuck

Maybe I just get voted

Maybe I just get voted here for trying to do something

That’ll definitely ease my anxiety

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the more i try to calm this tribal down the crazier shit gets

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FORTNITE

Fuggles getting to go to another lodge should be considered a crime

Alrighty, I suppose I should ease up now before things get out of hand

👀

I’m starting to get a tad nervous and I don’t wanna be blindsided and like

have put too much emotion into this that losing makes me crash out 😂

I’m so done w this shit

I’m crying I never cry at games I never cry

But this hurts so bad

Don't cry stab them all

but also it's okay to cry

I’ve never been so unheard in a game, like, ever I mean for weeks I’ve told these people we’re not ride or dies

I even told people maybe people think we’re close and it’s a misunderstanding because I know Marissa outside this org

But not one person gave me the benefit of the doubt today

And I’ve just been crying and wondering why I’m here

If no one will listen to me or play with me then why am I here

“I thought you might tell Marissa” why would I when she doesn’t tell me shit?

“Gem can I be blunt” she says to me today

Then proceeds to be vague as fuck

Yeah I get it

I’d vote her ass too

But no one gave me a chance

Not one person

And then fucking Fuggles was so mean on top of it

Like oh I’m sorry your ego is so fucking fragile you can’t get three parchments without throwing a fit????

You think I don’t know Fuggles and Jack were a duo????

“This from Ricci:

Morning! I got some concerning news. Theo yesterday was pitching to me hard that he wanted to use the extra vote to get out either clint or jack, but both Jack and Fuggles came to me saying that they heard Theo was trying to get us to split the vote so he could use the extra vote to take me out”

JACK AND FUGGLES BRO

It’s not rocket science

sometimes it's not that people genuinely think you're close with someone, it's that they have decided they have found their group of people they want to play with and don't think they need anyone else so they throw whatever excuse at the wall that they can, which like I know doesn't help at all with the bad feelings, but i just am saying like... maybe framing it differently is something you should do, like it's not that you're unheard, it's that they're all just stubborn and set in their ways already

I know nothing I can only see your conf, as a disclaimer

I think it’s possible that it benefited at least one person to lump me with Marissa no matter what I said

For their game benefit

Tonight I got this from Sams: I was told that you literally told someone that you and Marissa were “a package deal”

When I swapped with Marissa after being apart she’d met Ricci who said Marissa “spoke highly of me” I literally said “oh how sweet I’ll have to thank her” thinking oh she gave me a good word that’s really kind of her

Under no circumstances did I ever think we were being chain linked together

But seriously round after round after round after round “well I know you and Marissa are close” “what do you think Marissa will want to do here?”

Literally today Marissa goes: can I be blunt? Then proceeds to tell me the vaguest shit about how “something seems amiss”

What the hell do I do with that???

If even ONE person had thought to ask me if I’d be willing to vote Marissa I might’ve said it’s not my first choice because she’s been a decent communicator (with me, or with me and Theo, before this round) but if everyone wants to vote her there’s probably something I’m missing!

Honestly if I had to name a duo rn it’d be Theo!

Because no one has spent half the game shoving me and Theo together in every other game related sentence

And it feels like the more I say we’re not close (me and Marissa) the more hydra heads pop up asking if we’re a duo

Or asking if we’re close

Or just assuming we are

I can’t kill the hydra heads fast enough

And the funny thing is I tried

So many times

With multiple people

To be like “do you think it’s cause Marissa and I know each other outside the game?” “Do you know why people say we’re a duo cause I don’t know where that’s coming from” and no one fucking listened to me

That’s why I was crying tonight because everyone believed something completely untrue and thought I’d leak to Marissa or be too devastated to vote her or try to change things

And I just can’t stand not being heard

And then Fuggles sends this which was just a cherry on fucking top “Gem nobody wants to work with you and Theo to vote me out cause my personality rocks”

Yes Fuggles thank you for being a fucking asshole at the end of the tribal because you got three parchments and couldn’t fucking handle it

I don’t know where to go from here because the only people I currently trust are Star Soul and Theo

I’m not discounting the apologies from Clint and Sams or Void but they like expected it to be a rough conversation cause they expected me to be mad as Marissa’s duo

No I’m mad as Gem who most definitely was not for even one singular second Marissa’s duo

And I don’t know how to talk to them

And I basically messaged everyone like go ahead vote me out next

Not because I’m wallowing in self pity

But because I feel so unheard, and completely and utterly misunderstood

That the silence I got today was people making a conscious decision that they knew something about me and they got it so wrong that if I’m not going to be listened to then why the fuck am I still here

Besides it’s not like anyone’s made alliances w me that don’t come from Theo or Clint so I can’t say anyone really trusts me or wants to play w me

Maybe I’m wallowing a little bit

But it’s also true

I had time to sleep and think

I’m still upset but I just think it’s better to move on probably than continue to sit in these feelings

I didn’t expect to be so hurt by so many people not trusting me over Marissa or what they believed to be true

I can’t get that back

But I can accept it for what it was and move on

thank u sm for playing

u were such a queen

I had a good time!!!

Until I had a bad time, then I blocked and muted so I could keep having a good time!!!

Much love fr fr for hosting me

I was MESSY compared to my usual gameplay

i think the word ur looking for is iconic

11th is not too shabby for a Gem

sorry for the yellowq heart spam

Especially with how much scrambling I was doing

Nahhh you’re good!!

i wasn’t tooo too active but i noticed

spicy gem is a side of gem i would love to see again

thank you for playing and gracing us with your presence <3

I was battling misperceptions of me literally all merge long spicy gem is tired 😂

But I’ll try and revive her if the need arises

Batman type shit

Thank you again for hosting me I’m always always happy to play an org w Fio on prod

much love <3

You know what the hardest part of the game has been for Gem? Sitting on jury with the people who hated me after the Ricci vote

Ironically to not be far behind him 💀

Karma is swift I suppose

I truly think I got cursed w all my faves except Star, Ricci and Sams and Clint still being in the game like this is difficult now finding out Bethany was bitter post Ricci vote rather than respecting the move was…tough to hear but it’s okay

Well almost all

How is Ryan still there 😭

Is he just in goat status or what

I had a LOT of faves in this game to be fair

Oh my god I forgot Marissa

She’s been so quiet on jury

I do adore Marissa I just detested having my game robbed by some association I tried my damndest to discredit