#3rd-mike-conf-🔒

45 FUCKIN MINUTES

@-Fio‼️ i can say who my loved one is right

bruh there’s rlly just a tribe of all ladies

nvm there’s that r lime guy

unless there are three women on the entire cast which like… it’s a discord org

@-Fio‼️ noisy who just joined can see my confs!!!

lezaria - "i am going to be the most inactive person this season"

welp

ok so

my loved one is corny

i asked him in the vc "where are you from"

AHAHAHAHAHAHHAAAAAAAAaaa

IM CRINE

i gave him trusted spec do u want to invite him in to speak here?

yes!!

The king has entered the chat 🙏

i feel like such shit that i can’t contribute to the game rn because of my job

but i feel worried because xsoul joined my survivor discord server

so he might clock way too early that my loved one is corny

now i’m paranoid he’s telling my allies in the vc

fucking god dammit

i don’t wanna paranoia myself into being the first boot but it’s not impossible that this is all fucking me in the ass

i’ll tell corny abt it tho

‼️ | CONF QUESTIONS [Ep. 1]

—~—~—~—~—
1.) | What brought you here to play Fiovivor? What's your goal for the season, and how do you plan on achieving it?
2.) | You've been here for about ten hours and Day 1 is coming to a close. How's the vibe so far, what are your first impressions of people so far?
3.) | If you would be so inclined to share, who is your partner in this game and how do you anticipate the season will play out for you guys? Do you anticipate some good chemistry or things to be a bit more on the messy side?
4.) | What are your thoughts on the twists and first Immunity Challenge? Would you consider Sandbagging, or perhaps you have plans to get yourself or an ally sent to Rehab to skip Tribal Council?
5.) | Trust rankings of your tribe perchance? Or perhaps any other comments of notability? :3
—~—~—~—~—

how the actual FUCK have i contributed the fourth most on this tribe

that's so fucked lol

i dont got enough material for this yet ill get back to u

WOOOOORD

i have an ally (besides corny)

i might drop the info about corny and xsoul

the second i have the chance xsoul has to go

unless he’s with corny

and they’re on different tribes so no

im ngl

i hope some of the ladies in this game are actually their faces that they posted in pfps/game

im so deadass they're cute asf

do i play a flirt

now that i've lost weight and glown up since my org prime

i can be a good gentleman

bro do i really have a #mikesstrongestsoldier

am i that awesome somehow i really don't think i am

i've been a #chud

im glad i have info from corny about tribal though

5-1 unanimous and corny caught a vote

and the boot apparently went total baby rage mode

i'm so happy to have corny here he's just an awesome guy. i honestly would love to go to the end with him

made it

ya boi is paranoid tonight

it like

should be easy on cameron since bro wants out right?

lezaria has been SO weird though

she was like lowkey being really rude to me in the vc after the challenge? and my worry is that it’s because i was being fucking annoying about my job and just like

idk

and she’s been super cryptic and strange in dms

and this shit feels too easy

so i might be being punked

it’s just so strange you know?

a boot like this feels too good to be true and i’m not really hearing much from anyone

i’m so cooked honestly

lezaria ain’t even responding now i am literally going home 5-1

just the total silent treatment from everybody because i got paranoid and jumped the gun

i want to be here and unless he’s super trolling cam doesn’t wanna

bruh i’m so fucked lol

i’m dreading tribal

well time to get it out the way!

yeah i figured cam would just idolbait here

and lazeria def told him to get rid of me

never mind then unless it goes to a tie here

okay i’m just a paranoid wreck for no reason then word cool

time to chill out now that i know where things stand

i was typing out “i will be doing galaxy gas in your honor cameron agent. inshallah.” and no one got to see me clipfarming for the sake of being annoying. what the fuck.

i hate doing this because for like 2 days i trusted her

but i just don’t know if i can do it with lazeria

she makes me worried

she also said “your whole personality is your job what do i even talk about with you” like bro i was talking to you AT WORK

as the host i cannot comment

as your BOY

LOCK IN BRO

DAWG WHAT IS THAT SUPPOSED TO MEAN

FIO = IDF

IDFIO

chat i think i wanna sandbag

https://tenor.com/view/washed-celtics-shaq-gif-16973372524746734607

IN WHAT CONTEXT DOES THIS MEAN

MY BROTHER

None

I just put this here cause why not

bruh

faye is far and away my #1

thank you for the idol clue faye!

thank you for listening to me about lazeria faye!

thank you for making a core 3 with riley with me faye!

thank you faye!

its too early for me to sandbag sadly

i bombed the challenge lol

me faye and riley all went trust each other mode and told each other our loved ones

and all of us expressed having xsoul kinda on our dick

WE WON?????/

aw butt a swap

imma miss gang

FUCK IM AWAY FROM FAYE AND RILEY

MY TOP 2

if lazeria is actually down for like dbd kinda stuff though maybe i can trust her a liiiiiiiittle longer

damn im also with uhhh

people i know well-ish are laz and gray

CORNY OBVIOUSLY

katie is in the vcs enough

and xsoul. xsoul is the danger

AHHHHHHHH

idk why i feel the need to say this here but wrong place wrong time uh

i just came across smth that reminded me of my kiiinda sooooorta ex ish

specifically the moment of the breakup

godddddddddddddddddd

dammit

riley/syn
faye/virgo (virgo! was nice in vc last night!)
mike/corny

and i fully think katie/xsoul

im like 85% convinced that katie and xsoul are loved ones tbh

esp because we know how the loved ones were divided via tribes

also i just remembered that bb and the challenge used to do exes seasons without telling people

i would deadass just blow my shi off smoov if i get to the game and she is just there

@-Fio‼️ will there be single elims once we get to the merge

my ass is NOT sandbagging... this challenge at least

no triple elims every single round

we want this season short and sweet

finale will be a quad elim

with an f1 ftc

god shes so hot

i am willing to let her groom me

alright man

actually

im 21 now its fine

in my mind i'm like 18-19 because of covid

woahhhh

valid

its sabrina

‼️ 🚔 🚨 SWAP CONFESSIONAL QUESTIONS (EP. 4)
1.) | YOU officially made the swap! How are you feeling about your new tribe? (If you’re Layton, then what tribe do you want to be on?)
2.) We’ve seen players from duos get slimed already. Do you think you’ve sleuthed out who the duos are? What’s your strategy whether your duo is in the game or not?
3.) Which player or host would you permanently send to rehab if you could?
4.) Drop a trust rankings PRETTY PLEASE. 🥺
5.) Compose a nightmare blunt rotation tribe of 6 consisting of anybody ever in existence. The best answer gets to add a custom emoji to the server!

i guess i'm working with dino now?

which is cool?

yeah it is!

tribe rankings
1) corny
2) dino
3) grey
4) idk lol

dino also seems to think katie and xsoul are a duo

and i think they are the power duo of this game

DAWG YALL THINK YALL SLICK

AND IT MAKES SENSE BECAUSE FIO DIDNT FUCKING SAY HOW THE TRIBES WERE PICKED

DUOS
Lezaria/OUT?
R-Lime/OUT (confirmed)
Corny/Mike (confirmed)
xSoul/Katie (highly speculated)
Fazz/Grey (sure)
Dino/Wall (confirmed)

Faye/Virgo (confirmed)
Speed/Ghost (sure)
Syn/Riley (confirmed)
Hailey/Quas (sure)
Mateo/Slugger (highly speculated)

corny/mike
mateo*/slugger
fazz/grey
syn/riley
tonio/cameron
twelve/lazeria
virgo/faye
dino/wall
hailey/quas
mish/joe
rlime/rachel
sin/layton
speed/ghost
xsoul/katie

yeah this is the entire game

just right here

i dont know if im the first to figure this out (im definitely not)

but hooooooly fuck

dino and corny will be the only ones that know i know and that i know know

if that makes sense

dead by daylight is a fun game

im nice at ping pong

man these people do not talk to me

im trying my best

wall the target maybe

idk i just decided

because there is xsoul and katie but its too easy to take them out

and dino and wall are i think beefing idk fs

my top 2 are european bro

dude i dont trust katie at all

idk why

i just dont

xsoul i dont trust either since he's shifty but i'm lowkirkenuinely being shifty too

i'm just way better at hiding it since i'm shifty with corny (corny) and dino (kind of a free agent rn)

im honestly kiiiinda doing the exact same thing that xsoul and katie are doing just way more behind the scenes

🙂

on top of corny and dino being good for my game they're honestly just the two people i like the most and get along with the most

dino and i are a bit similar and corny has been my boy for years

XSOUL WILL

SAVE US

i also have a conf for @-Fio‼️ and only fio i will send it to you on instagram

yes sir

word

sent

@-Fio‼️ check lol

there is no shot

actors win the comp if mateo didn’t spend the whole time sandbagging LMFAOOOO

thank you mateo, you gave my tribe immunity and put a hit out on yourself in the process

actually having a good chat with xsoul rn

which is nice

like not even game talk just talk talk

all ive heard strat wise is like

it seems like its wall

yoooo what the hell nice

dino and i were chatting about like anything and everything for like 4 hours bro 😭

yeah she and corny are like easy my top 2

cornys my boy forever and dino and i are getting really close really quickly

my two europeans ❤️

lezaria shot up in my trust rankings shoutout dbd

dino is so fucking funny we're just telling each other about the history of our dating lives

its hilarious

oh british people

silly british people

her insta also accidentally popped up on my "people you may know" so now we're instagram mutuals

sure

i have corny on insta too. so yeah. corny and dino. my two european besties

also after talking with corny it seems like if we were to lose

its probably rlime?

rlime's bvw duo is out of the game and he isn't super active and also lowkey kinda weird to talk to

im not calling him a weirdo or anything just like

idk he's not the most conversational

id be fine with wall going too if dino is but i doubt it. im much more inclined to at least for now work with katie and xsoul and i think wall is in with them

just chatted with dino for like 40 minutes in vc, got some interesting info

- xsoul is eyeing corny
- i expressed eyeing rlime, it feels like a safe vote and dino was like

half on board but she was on an og tribe with him and he was like

idk

weird circumstances but she was basically like

"he's a get him out whenever" guy but if there's any time for an easy vote

rlime doesn't have a loved one here

neither does lez but im not voting her out

so

rlime is what makes most sense to me

if the tribe does end up going in cornys direction im just gonna be upfront

ill tell corny he's going and ask permission for me to put a vote on him and not tell anyone that we're a duo

yk

ISRAEL

rlime in the call no please dont get close with the FOUR OTHER TRIBEMATES IN THE CALL OH GOD please dont kill off corny in this game

i have no idea what the tribe dynamics look like at ALL rn

i just think im in a good spot?

i totally forgot we both gotta go to tribal

ive really only heard corny and rlime going around

unfortunately ive heard corny more and i dooooont wanna tell him

and if he goes itll be like fifteen 9/11s

😔

@-Fio‼️ i found this. i’m so so sorry.

thats a STRIKE

youre already playing fiovivor so...

truths

lez convinced me to do trust rankings

fiiiiiiiine

i would so vote speed to rehab everyone wants him out

and if there’s another swap or there’s a merge

shits FREE

anyways i got all the rlime tea

he was messily throwing out names and afaik it should be easy on him

i just worry that if we lose after this double tribal things are gonna get more intense

like i don’t want any of these people to go yk

unfortunately it looks like it’d be a tall task to get corny far

and i don’t necessarily know what his future holds if i’m trying to make my future a winning one yk

still, i’ve gotten really really close with dino on a personal level the last several days. like we’re chatting like we’ve been friends for years, it’s funny

so with corny kinda in jeopardy to be out within the next week, dino is probably going to wind up being my biggest partnership in this game long term

i also love how people know that katie and xsoul are threatening. like REALLY threatening

ideally myself grey lez and dino are a core four but

i also do worry about running my mouth or being embarrassing or awkward

dumbass interaction with myself and lez where i thought she was flirting with me

whoops

but i’m overthinking

because i have anxiety and ocd and i am coming down on stimulants

another overthinking concern of mine is like

i don’t want dino to think i like

like her yk

we’re tight, we’ve had some good convos, she’s a friend. we click as friends.

god forbid a young man and young woman are tight strategically and as friends

rankings

1. corny
2. dino
3. grey
4. lez
5. fazz (lowkey ngl)
6. soul
7. katie
8. wall
9. lime

note this kinda overthinking is because my coworker yesterday saw my dms throughout the game and noticed dino and was like ooooh ahhhhh and then ocd shit hit me

thank you for the confessionals mike 🙏

navigating a game like survivor with ocd (knowing i have ocd) is like

ocd makes survivor way harder for me than the normal person

so winning would make me the strongest motherfucker out here

as my friend kyle told me to call myself last night

I AM BEAST MODE JEW

LIME LOST ❤️❤️❤️

well uh

i guess i’m at rehab

@-Fio‼️ what’s the vc restrictions for rehab

no vc

fuck

i miss talking to my friends already 🙁

@-Fio‼️ am i allowed to tell lezaria that being in rehab instead of playing dead by daylight makes me wanna do galaxy gas

nooooo commmmssss withhhhhh urrrrrr triiiiibe

🙁

LMAOO

i miss my friends already

#mikemob

i love how an ongoing joke with this season has been making fun of israel

and the big 'yahu

ok so my rehab twist was me getting to pick 2 people im swapping to and 2 people that are gonna swap on a different tribe to me

and i couldnt pick corny

so i picked dino and grey obviously. dino duh because her and corny are my besties, grey is the one i trust slightly more out of him and lez though i love them both

and i don't wanna be with xsoul because... it's not that i don't trust him i think him and i are cool, he's just very obviously a threat considering he's a winner, clearly super intelligent, and we all know what he did on day 1. talked about speed earlier because i want him to be an easy target for me come the merge

@-Fio‼️ can you relay this to lezaria grey and xsoul or do i have to wait

bro

what do you think

☠️

this guy does not understand the concept of being exiled from a tribe

🙁

theoretically its possible on exile to get some bamboo, carve a message, send it in the ocean and hope it lands at your camp

#truthnuke

(i am obviously joking abt all this lmfao)

if you wanna send them a handwritten letter be my guest

fio when we going to chilis again

i’d be down sometime this week or this weekend!!!

TRIPLE DIPPERRRR

hell fucking yeah im just only available thurs night for it rlly

i wish i lived by org players..

if i don’t have to do results or tribal that day i’ll oh

pu*

i have like 5 hours left to come up with a lie for what rehab was like

if i complete a puzzle within 10 minutes i get a secret advantage and i lowkey couldn’t be bothered because (and what i’m going to say isn’t a lie) i’m having a beyond miserable day

my job is ruining my mental health and tomorrow is the “ex”’s birthday and i have no support system left when it comes to her

like nobody in my life irl gives a shit anymore and i get scolded every time i even vaguely reference it

and so i have to face it alone tomorrow and spend all day ruminating and trying to fight off the impulse to do something about her

ocd just

uggghhhh

and no one even understands what it’s like

which is why a game like survivor is so much harder for me than anybody else

it’s double the game for me

since on top of playing i have to play the game against myself and my own mind plaguing me

honestly in terms of opening up about ocd, outside of therapy uh

of all people i’ve ever talked to about it dino seems to understand it the most besides one other friend irl that has it

and that friend is very closed off about talking about mental health or personal stuff like that

a lot of the reason that i’m really putting eggs in the dino basket as an ally and friend is because i trust her to be myself around. around most people i still have to hide a bunch

whenever someone says “omg i’m so ocd!1!1” like shoot me bro

yk

i would genuinely rather be cell mates with p. diddy than live another minute with obsessive compulsive disorder and it’s not like i can go to jail with diddy lol

i’m playing this game against myself on top of everyone else playing against each other

what makes the ex stuff and no one understanding me even worse at this very moment is

- not being able to talk about it with anyone (especially with rehab added in)
- i’m at work, i get here and my boss immediately puts me in a fucking awful situation

using confs as a journal is helping for sure for sure for sure

but i have to put on a smile with customers who treat me like fucking dogshit too

and keeping everything together on the job is literally physically harder than running a mile

i have no way of releasing everything i’m feeling physiologically. no time to even silently shed a tear

just had to intro an escape group while acting all happy when i actually wanna sob right now

the only way to soothe the urges im having is to

a) have a reassuring, deep conversation where i open up and am comforted by someone who cares about me, which is impossible right now, mostly due to timing and circumstance but also not being able to go to anyone in my personal life
b) reach out to her, ruin her birthday, which has a 99% chance of making everything exponentially worse. it’s an impulse that my ocd is waving around me like a dog treat with a deadly cocktail of chocolate and heroin in it and it’s destroying me

so that’s why it’s lowkey hard to not have the vc. these people haven’t been around me the last year. they haven’t seen my insufferability. they’re more willing to listen to me. i have no access to that right now.

which is why if i make it to the end, i have the case that i’ve played the best game of survivor possible. because i played two games at once. one against everyone here, but also against my own ocd. and what an achievement it’d be to win this fucking game when it’s so much harder for me than anybody else.

part of me is happy to not be dealing with the stress of actually being at tribal oh brother

regarding rehab advantages i’m not going to lie about not even wanting to think about advantages or the game because i’m just so preoccupied with my draining job and the m(xx)a of it all, i’m way too drained to solve a puzzle in ten minutes anyways

but i have the chance to tell nobody that im controlling who i swap with, and im never telling anyone

so fuckit lol might as well take advantage of myself

survivor brings out everything in people man

i sound like a fucking loser from the new era god dammit

whatever that made me feel a little bit better

honestly

i said her name didn’t i

at this point if people wanna ruin her day i could care less

(don’t do it obviously)

it’s lonely at rehab and i’m so fucking lonely at work too

holy shit

this is such torture

@-Fio‼️ can you please yell at me to not text her

lmfao

michael

if you text her

I WILL DOX YOU

I WILL ISRAEL NUKE YOUR HOUSE

DONT DO IT

trust and believe your time will come

it is not now

not with her

check your subs 🫶

THE BIG YAHU YOUVE CONVINCED ME

fwiw this isn’t what i’m worried about i know it will

i don’t want her back i want to piss her off on her birthday lol

i’m not dumb enough to but my ocd would love me to be

i’ve been there before and it’s never worth 😭🙏 just be the bigger person trust

every time i’m feeling better my job does some fuckass shit to make it worse again lol

i’m not gonna do it because i’m lowk too chicken but also no matter what i do there’s nothing that’ll keep me from being the bigger person regardless

she’s that evil

it’s not right to go into it here but there’s literally nothing i can do at all that would make her the bigger person lol

everyone’s in the vc 🙁

@-Fio‼️ when’s tribal

we’re swapping and only i know

stop the cap @-fishpog | {S1; S6} swap us

18 person merge couldnt hurt

bruh

cool so last swap and we merge at 13

makes sense

oh

this is an interesting tribe!

i got dino and grey like the sneaky control freak i am

jk

but i also have riley again!!!

and wall

and quas

but idk how much of an odd man out quas is

and the kirkifications

ok so im not going to give any details as to what specifically

out of respect

but dino and i opened up to each other about a bunch

and i think it's just showing an element of trust

effectively besides corny she's my easy #1 that is not gonna change

thanks for reminding me

https://tenor.com/view/charlie-kirk-gguh-trending-meme-charlie-kirk-gif-260876314022351132

@-Fio‼️ can we get kirkified emojis for the server

we be like kyle and kamilla

the secret alliance that no one knows about

i like my tribe

🙂

i would like to think i’m in the very best position on this tribe

i have grey and riley

i have dino

by proxy i have wall

and it’s not like quas dislikes me or anything yk

BANG

drinking

(that’s me in the photo my dad took the picture)

LETS FUCKING GO METS

@-Mike | {S9} when chili’s tn

i’ll lyk timing i’m still upstate

i have tribal at 8 for my game so i might have my phone out

that’s cool

YOUR ASS IS UPSTATE ?????

YEAH

😭😭😭😭

IN COOPERSTOWN

which is like fine but i was expecting to be home by like 4 the latest

if it’s a rush to do today i can do tmr or the weekend :3

ohhh okok

just lmk

if my dad isn’t a fucking asswipe

i told him i have dinner plans

I WAS GONNA SAY I RECOGNIZE THIS PLACE

LOL

LOL

LOL

say it’s with a hot girl so he rushes u home

i literally told him danny and fio and he was like sure

????

i mean it’s cooperstown there’s like two memorable spots to eat so😭😭😭

YOUVE BEEN THERE???

yes i’ve been to cooperstown

lol

i went to community college in herkimer

cos they have housing

community college with housing is like

quite the rare commodity ☠️

oh fucking hell yeah

this place is beyond cool

no like yeah what

ALSO WAIT DANNYS COMING????

LETS GOOOOO

YESSIR

and if we decide to tag along any other special characters that may happen too if that’s cool with you

@-Fio‼️ i will be home by 5 idk when chilis is happening though

i’m flexible

just lmk

yay

i’ll keep you posted

speed and hailey out make a lotta sense

unfortunate for quas

I USE MY CONFS

@-Fio‼️ 7 or 7:30?

and are we meeting at chilis or at that parking lot

meet @ chillis

can we do 730

word

can we actually do it after my tribal

what times that at

like can i leave my house at 8

ok fire

8:15?

yeah around then

gg

word

i’m so goated

ANYWAYS THANK YOU @-Fio‼️ :)))

W

it clicked in my mind what my goal is once we merge

at that vote

just have as many options as possible

make sure to figure out all the dynamics and figure out where the right path is

1 dino 2 grey 3 riley 4 wall 5 quas

done

im probably gonna try and help out the tribe instead of sandbagging

based on what riley said to myself and grey i think she might have eyes on dino and wall?

of the two like obviously i'd prefer wall goes but

eh i feel secure enough in my tribe i really don't need to sandbag

that's why i didn't pay for fio's food last night (sorry fio)

i lowkey got an LRG to pay for

if it's a joint tribal with agents i have king corny, and a quick vc convo with katie and/or soul should have me secure on them too

im actively trying to be less paranoid and overthinky despite my ocd

lowkey fighting against the big no good paranoid thoughts that my brain is trolling me over is gonna do wonders for my long term mental health

that's survivor, baby

a joint tribal would likely be mateo syn or quas i think

yeah my ass is NOT fucking sandbagging lol

so im chillin

i just gotta be up with the taskmasters until i have to run errands in an hour and then go to work at 6:45pm

OH SHIT WE CLOSE

I NEEDA LOCK TF IN

I DONT HAVE WORK TIL 7

prayer circle for me not losing my shit with ocd induced paranoia if we lose

thank you virgo for giving up!

i lowkey mightve just won immunity for the tribe?

48 mins to go nvm

can my ocd

please fucking stop

please stop making me paranoid beyond belief

can i like stop getting paranoid regarding every single individual left in this game without any reason to do so

can my brain fucking

shut the fuck up

living with ocd is genuine torture

like

i love this show and this game so much and its so much harder for me because of this

i could list an example with everyone left in the game

- do grey and lezaria think i am an idiot and annoying
- is corny playing way more aggressively than im thinking
- what the hell are katie and xsoul doing
- does dino think i have a thing for her (i dont have a thing for her)
- what is even with this mega alliance i heard virgo was proposing
- is riley legit?
- are quas and wall legit?

meanwhile i know rationally none of these things are true but my brain just

my brain cant help itself but do the take the L dance and dangle these questions over my head repeatedly

like... im fine, i know im fine

katie was even saying stuff in the vc that was slightly reassuring without me even verbalizing the ocd paranoia

i just need to keep fighting and not give into the thoughts

CORNY PRAYER CIRCLE

https://tenor.com/view/cult-the-craft-ritual-gif-11800002

HI NOPE ❤️

You better be winning this 😤

i think so

idk

quas mightve lowkirk made a mistake not mutinying oops

also riley just randomly dropped her name being out there like what the fuck

thats news to me

faye virgo riley vs corny apparently

holy conflict of interest genuinely

i feel so out of the loop apparently grey knows all the drama

i blame my boss and dad

drama with quas and riley now too

oh my god the web of connections and alliances and resentment and blood vs water is all hitting me in the face right now and i’m

discombobulated

as far as i’m aware i’m nobody’s target and not on anyone’s bad side

god the merge vote is gonna come down to myself and dino just kinda deciding what to do

i have no fucking clue what to do

i’m cool with so many people that are just beefing with each other and loyal

i’m like trying to figure out how to map everything out and i just can’t it’s impossible

i guess i’m tightest with corny then dino then grey idfk

idk jack shit mane

but odds are… i don’t know what the hell the odds are

the brain is foggy

but yeah odds are it’s like

faye virgo riley on the bottom which is ass because faye and riley trust me

i wanna have as many people in this game trust me as possible

but i’ll have to cut my losses at some point

that said i have to take a shot at xsoul… eventually

i don’t know when eventually is

but eventually

can we get a mike breakdown of your pov of the dynamics?

dawg here’s the thing i have none 😭

it’s all too intertwined

thank god he said no as soon as we screenshotted

(rehab)

it legit just might be faye and virgo on the bottom with riley as the third in that

tbh

fuck dude do i gotta vote out riley if we lose

that would suuuuuck because her and i really trust each other

she just got totally screwed over by faye/virgo/syn 🙁

oh my tribe is fucking cooked bro

its over

we fucking

LOST

my first like actual tribal

and i feel like myself and grey are chillin

and dino

three of us are like safe safe

i hope

lez just said ghost goes

cool

quas and riley going for each other

the rest of us decide

im still paranoid beyond belief but

i just needa

not compulsively act on the obsessive thoughts!

yay!

ohhhhhh shit

wall is soft soft soft putting a target on dino

not good!

honestly wall is the person i trust the least and am the least close with on the tribe

but like

its gonna be riley

i dont see how it cant be riley

i feel so bad having to lie to riley man

she trusted me early and i trusted her

this sucks but it’s just by far the move better for my game

promote my instagram too

dawggggg of course riley has a swop

RIP quas you were a real one

this sucks

now rileys gonna be mad at me

i hope i can be as honest and understanding as possible

dino and myself both acting like we’re closer with grey than each other >>>

i will be so honest though i get the vibe that… iiiii have a little distrust with grey

not for this vote i’m fully sure it’ll be 3-2 quas-grey whatever

i don’t wanna go past like

8 with the guy though

he’s good

the only people i fully would love to go to the endgame with rn are obviously corny and dino

wtvs tho even though my guard is always up and my paranoia is always sprinkling im sure it’ll just be quas

and that we need to just let wall and quas think what they want idk

and no need speculating about jury threats rn besides xsoul but no one wants that mad genius to get to the single digits

we just all needa work overtime about his advantages and flushing and getting to them etc

but xsoul also might just be way too smart

which like lowwwwkey the shot could’ve been taken immediately. but he trusts me i hope

so

🤷‍♂️

quas making shit up to save face lol

so apparently dino might have an idol that idk about?

she would’ve absolutely told me if she did

source is apparently xsoul and i thought it was lowkey consensus that the dude had the idol the whole time

and xsouls a winner so i’m sure he’s making shit up

i’ll confirm w dino when she wakes up i reeeeeally hope she didn’t keep the idol secret from me

but i never asked about advantages

so

i’m not survivor confident at all by any means still

but how the FUCK am i the safest person on the tribe

(i say this before going home)

but yeah the way quas is just lying it’s like

out of character for both myself and dino

there is zero chance she’d throw my name under the bus to quas

plus xsoul fazz riley have advantages

something’s fishy

but i just cannot act on the paranoid again

calm down mike calm down mike calm down mike this is nothing this is nothing this is nothing

this is why survivor is harder for my ocd ass

this is every single tribal i fall into an ocd spiral

and like i just have to control myself

i’m trying so hard to keep it together against my own brain

i don’t believe him bruh

dawg he said he wants wall

capper

and he said he wants dino

no bro

fake ahhh

my biggest fear is either myself or dino going both would suck asssssss

me dino and corny would be boots that actually would seriously hurt emotionally

i could legit just tell quas “don’t fuck with me or dino” and just pass it off as quas being a messy liar

WHY ARE LEZARIA AND SOUL BEING SHADY IN THE VOICE CALL

AND LIKE

TALKING DOWN AT ME

AAAAUUUUUGGGGHHHHH

MAYBE

soul wants dino out now too??

what the fuuuuuuck

oh theyre undermining dino for the rlime thing?

i i i

dino's done ain't she

this is easily the most frustrating several hours ive ever had

based on this voice call (i respect lezaria less now i feel talked down at but like wtv)

it seems like dino might be done here

fuuuuuuuck

like i like everyone here but dino is the one person i've met that i can call a genuine friend i met here

xsoul "MIKE IF ITS NOT GREY ITS YOU"

can i shoot myself

"i wouldnt feel safe here, im not gonna lie"

voting off grey is deadass the best move for me aaaugugughhhhh

i either write down wall with grey
or i just have to get rid of grey

that was a fucking overwhelming

xsoul actively fucked up giving quas an idol daaaaammmnnniiitttttt

aauugughghghh

i just

im just speechless man

this is survivor baby

xsoul is no better than he says of dino btw

and theres a real chance dino does just vote me out

this is actual hell

and i hope we at least get a day or two once the merge hits

this is MISERABLE

i just have to hope that my recent super close friendship with dino is enough to keep me over her actual loved one

itd be a dogshit idea to just call her on instagram (she'd sleep right through it)

i have to be up early as fuck

so rip me sleeping

because im not going to sleep until i hear from dino

i just really want to keep this friendship

we've told each other things that i can't even repeat here

just as a reminder, it's like 1am here in the UK😭 pls do get some sleep at some point

its 8pm here, i know she's gonna be up around the time i go to bed anyways

this org did deadass make me get over her (m*ra)

im not even lying

and i owe a lot of that to dino honestly, a lot of the convos we had just made me realize a lot of shit about my situation last year and helped me heal

like im not even kidding

if i make it out alive
- xsoul has to defeat the seven evil exes
- quas is a dead man walking
- lezaria is on the hit list

- i owe it all to grey

- at least let me have a convo w dino abt the idol

and why she didn’t tell me

and i feel the need to clarify no i do not have any sort of feelings for dino lol

a human being who happens to be a woman can accidentally help a human being who happens to be a man get over an “ex” without any implications

if i go here i am a legendary tragic premerger with one of the most devastating characters arcs that would land me in the top 75 of a survivor rankdown and i get a special exception to go on all stars

if wall goes here and i live

i will be on the biggest hero underdog arc / anger deathmarch kill everyone comeback win run of all time

either way ive made my mark on fiovivor

this journey is teaching me a lot about myself

lowkey mentally exhausted but ah well

quas fucking goes before faye virgo riley all of that if i stay

that little shit needs to get punted like a football

its funny

org life and real life are always like a separate thing

the combo of fio corny and dino has made this uh

not that

and i think it being bvw makes a lot of shit bigger than the game

ffs katie and xsoul are girlfriend and boyfriend yk

whether im here or not i honestly anticipate this season getting... really dark

and this is the start of it

i mean shit this is going to be a really difficult decision for dino too

@-Fio‼️ i know you love survivor all stars

i think i know why

lol

i dont like orgs affecting my real life and actual mental but

man

3 hours at worst

agaagagghhhhh

sacrificing sleep to fight to stay in the game

the things i do to even make the damn jury RIP my sleep schedule

if dino picks wall over me i at least wanna have like

an actual conversation about it first

the mission

stay awake

i have a feeling she’s picking wall because she thinks i’ll be able to take it better emotionally

which it’s like

idk

i’m just trying my hardest to stay awake until i can have a conversation with her and plead my case

no dms sucks ass

because fucking

wall

if i’m speaking with dino wall will see it

i have a case to plead

if i go she loses corny soul and katie

none of them work with her if i’m gone

it is like actually insane how screwed dino would be without me at the merge

like from what people were saying in the vc they’d probably only work with her because of me

i just need her to WAKE UP

FUCK WALL GET OFFLINE

i stfg if i have to plead my case in front of wall

(i will)

just as long as quas doesn’t see it tbh

really just her saying i’m her “non negotiable” hopefully is enough

but again, my case is that she’s on the hitlist if i’m not there

and i don’t even have to say that it’s because of all the idol stuff just that it’d piss off corny and set off the chain of events

though her loyalty is questioned considering she never told me about her idol

but i never also told her about my actual rehab advantage so

touché

honestly i’m still just mainly trying to be the winner

more than anything

like no shit i’m not going to be able to fall asleep until i’ve pled my case to dino

i’m tryna not die

i’m thinking more about how it benefits dino to keep me tho

but that’s mostly just because that would be my pitch to her if her decision wouldn’t already be made for either myself or wall immediately

also after the shit he just pulled like

do we really wanna basically hand the game to xsoul

because he’s obviously far and away the biggest threat, so threatening that no one’s gonna target him

and i have faith that he has faith in me so for now yk

but i think as the dynamics are now id be a pretty important piece in preventing xsoul from tearing through to a win

because he fucking owes me

nice i lived shoutout england

comms closing tn 💔

which like

good

i need a break from the game

if we could keep them open just with a no game talk rule thatd be lit

it is lowk nuts how ppl feel that dino is shifty and allat

she just had a bad read with the rlime situation and when picking between myself and wall

"non negotiable" is a strong word

@-Fio‼️ i can still talk to corny in like the context of rankdown right

because i cant exactly go a day without talking about keith famie with him

i would assume ya

if it’s someone you talk to everyday esp about other stuff yeah we can’t stop you 😭

ofc

i told dino about the rehab advantage

i guess now that i know about her idol

which yeah i get she wasn't planning on telling anybody and soul leaked it because he helped her find it

dino is just so misunderstood by so many people that think she's shady i just can't even talk about it here

i'm not airing out other peoples personal business to even the specs

i love soul and he's a genius but he's also a fucking idiot for blowing up dino for no reason and also GIVING QUAS THE IDOL DUUUUDE COME ON

can i stop being paranoid

when the vcs get quiet

blud blud bluddington

i feel so fucking bad for dino

just

the whole situation is really upsetting and i feel some degree of guilt and 100% empathy

again its not the specs business but she's just

super hurt by wall

expectedly

the dino/wall situation has me reminded of some shit

and above all else wall just needs to get off the internet

so i fully fully trust grey

my respect and trust for lezaria flipflops by the hour

im so deadass

lezaria is also like fully in the best position of the entire game

i fucked up w dino oops

now dino knows soul knows how close her and i are

which was a mistake but i thought that was info i had to drop to stay alive

dammit dammit dammit dammit dammit aauauuugfhhhh

dino wants soul now

i want quas but if i pull the “pls make it up to me” card on soul and just vote him out anyways

that’s fine

tbh

soul is fucking exhausting

great dude

but good lord

once i can talk to her again

i need dino to give me the idol

like she can’t have it

for her sake

‼️ MERGE CONFESSIONAL QUESTIONS (EP. 9)
1.) YOU officially made the merge and jury on one of the craziest premerges Fiovivor has seen in 9 seasons. How are you feeling after outlasting 15 people? Did you think you’d make it this far?
2.) How do you see the dynamics shaking up at the merge? Who do your consider your closest allies? Who are you hoping to slime sooner than later?
3.) What are your thoughts on the twists this season as we say goodbye to them? (Rehab, Sandbagging, Cross Tribe 24/7 VC)
4.) What’s been your favorite and least favorite part of the season so far?
5.) If your BvW partner is still in the game, would you ever consider turning on them? If they’re not in the game, has it made your game better or worse?
6.) Drop a trust rankings PRETTY PLEASE.
7.) We here at Fiovivor encourage having a life outside of Hollywoo! 📺 Is there anything IRL you’re looking forward to or anything you’d like to share with us that’s happening outside of the big screen!

1) i made the merge and im still in the game #peak. i thought id probably at least make it this far idk
2) my closest allies at this point are dino and corny not even close, grey is an easy 3rd too. i want quas gone and soul slimed but not yet. once we're back from break the game is gonna make me go back to wanting to shoot myself in the face
3) cross tribe vc has made this game fucking abominable. soul getting involved in EVERYTHING bro
4) favorite part - meeting all these cool people. least favorite part - the wall tribal
5) i am not ever voting corny out ever
6) gimme a second
7) ill drop mikelights tomorrow but i started my semester today!

TRUST RANKINGS
1A corny
1B dino
(sorted alphabetically)

3 grey
4 i dont fucking know 🙂

12 quas

soul could be as high as 4 as low as 11

katie i trust decently enough maybe not too much

riley idk about

lezaria i go back and forth about by the minute

virgo i barely know

fazz is chill

faye idk about but id like to feel ok about it

@cristen what if i have no clue how to order them

like legitimately it’s not really like

in my own brain i really struggle to compare people in just a 1-12 list

that’s understandable

bro so

for my class

im taking a film class specifically studying david lynch

ive put off getting into someone i know is going to be one of my favorite filmmakers ever just for this class

...i have to watch every movie he's ever made by next thursday

which like i get why we have to rush it, you have to watch all the lynch films like 5 times to get them

so i am 100% making this cast do lynch watch parties

literally when we get back from the break i might make everyone watch mulholland drive (i am halfway through blue velvet rn)

idk if i can do this successfully but

i would love to ask the tribe once we open again to halt game talk until the challenge ends

just because after 24h i don’t wanna speed right back into all the bullshit

fuck almighty 1 minute

here we go

i wanna put less pressure on myself one way or another

because ya know

i made the merge and jury

i still wanna hope for no strategy talk

i just

dino and xsoul fighting kills me inside

it’s why atp i just want soul gone

soul is a good guy but his super scheming “for fun” isnt just making the game difficult to navigate

it’s making it a mental hellhole for not only myself but one of my newest super close friends

for my own mental health soul needs to be on the jury. and i feel so terrible because soul is a great person with so many excellent qualities

and it’s a strength and testament to the guy that he can turn the switch off and play survivor hardcore

but where does that leave the rest of us

this game has taken such a toll on everyone lately

and it’s because of him

man the fact that soul is projecting his sneaky game onto dino and framing her as a calculated sociopath and ruining her perception

like

you know what let’s maybe not slander my friend like that?

like that’s not a beyond the game thing its good for souls game to do that

i know it’s not personal because no one else in the game truly knows what happened with dino and wall

but nobody knowing the truth for dino’s own personal sake is getting her painted as someone she isn’t as a person and player

and it’s just an unfortunate reality of the game that “trust me bro” isn’t gonna cut it

i wanna put dino voting out wall specifically behind us as the merge happens

but if soul will constantly push the image of dino that he’s creating it’s not possible to do that

long story short i feel there’s just this cloud over me of being picked by a person over her bvw duo and i want to get rid of that cloud so fucking badly

had a really reassuring convo with katie about the situation

and i really wanna just

ask xsoul to leave the wall tribal out of the rest of the game

because really at the end of the day that happened because of personal issues between dino and wall, and if they were fine i probably would’ve gone home

and it would’ve sucked but i know dino would have let me know and i would’ve understood

wall apparently also told katie that him and dino were having friendship issues so like sure

honestly if people can agree to just leave last tribal in the dirt this is going to be a much more pleasant and healthy game for everyone

i don’t even wanna talk about the call i had with soul just now

basically just said i wanna leave the wall tribal stuff behind for my own mental health

and i don’t want the wall stuff to be what my game revolves around especially because like

it’s not like i want my friendship with dino to be strained because of the wall situation

but whatever. if anyone brings it up to me i’m gonna be like “the situation upsets me i don’t wanna talk about it”

and these are good people. they understand that

i haven’t caught myself ocd spiraling in a minute. i should probably realize that ocd is ocding.

rest of the day after spiraling in the call with soul and not being able to catch myself spiraling over the vote i will probably just ask people to not talk about the game with me

like shit my dm convo with katie rn is about taco bell right now

i’m still at a great place in life rn even if this game has me stressed out

that’s not gonna change

my career is really really looking delicious rn

🥳

i honestly feel one step closer to my dream internship rn (SNL)

anyways now i’m fine and excited to watch mulholland drive lmao

back to silly mode

follow my instagram

why am i the big paranoid again

fight it fight it fight it

i worry that soul fuckin talked about my spiral in the call with him and just

idk

i dont know blud

i know ppl dont have issues with me its whatever

ill see tomorrow

i dont fuckin

i dont know

i dunno

i hate being at a low point in the game especially because i’m impatient for things to be good again

like can it be tomorrow already

pariah szn lol

now idk if my words got misconstrued back to dino or she’s giving me space or she’s just MIA rn

it’s best strategically for both of us for her to give me her idol ASAP

have a feeling i might be getting rehab’d here, if i do i lowkey have to make a fake knowledge is power

has the dino picking me thing only been an issue amongst the tribe because i was freaking out about it

because when i say im upset about the tribal people immediately jump to riley

is it me? am i the idiot?

or maybe maybe not

eye dee kay!

last couple hours have been reassuring

we relax

that said uh

the rizgod onto something when he told me to quit orgs

the rankdown server with corny and myself, random quote out of context:

"He’s known uzi way longer than he’s known some random ass baby"

fazz out of the game now woof

i don’t even want to think about what this means regarding the game and votes. i really hope his situation is okay ❤️

from the little i’ve interacted with him, he’s a great guy and i’m really sorry he’s going through this

soul basically lowkey trying and failing to turn dino and i against each other

i can’t play a game of survivor where i don’t have a plan and have to deal with 12 possible plans this other dude has soul needs to go plain and simple go calm down and focus on your exams and let me be able to like you again

i love soul the dude i fucking hate soul the player

wish i didn’t abstain from the challenge i wanna name the merge tribe jordany valdespin

i hate to use fazz’s evacuation as a talking point for the game

i really do

but with him gone there’s genuinely no other time to take the shot at soul if he is vulnerable tonight

if the bottom of his pants raise enough while he walks to expose his achilles heel, it HAS TO HAS TO HAS TO HAS TO get done. it just needs to go absolutely perfectly or he wins the game

it’s just impossible to play soul survivor when i’m trying to play survivor

this is not a game about some dude going on a machiavellian tear because he wants to prove he can get away with it (because he can if these people wake the fuck up like corny has)

11 people can’t revolve their game around him having 10 plans at once

anyways, i’ll be removed from this game just before we see who wins, i’ve got a twin peaks pilot to watch.

rehab oops

soul wins and i’m at rehab fuckin

great

great man

dino is like

done here isn’t she

maybe for my sake not going to tribal is good but

the isolation won’t be fun

this kills me

this feels like storybook foreshadowing that the next time i get to talk to my buddy is at ponderosa

trust rankings
1 go
2 fuck
3 your
4 self
5 x
6 soul
7 you
8 machiavellian
9 mother
10 fucker
11 quas

shoutout the guy that is xsoul

if dino is booted im going to never let soul hear the goddamn end of it. and if she is i better have that damn idol

the only thing worse than dino going is CORNY going

if CORNY goes i’ll be mad at soul the guy

dino going would take away my non negotiable and a new budding close friendship, but at least if soul does it… whatever. i’ll be pissed but. it’s probably good for his game and i can at least respect that he’s doing what he thinks is right for him. it’s just a game after all

corny goes and i write soul’s name down no matter what until one of us is on the jury

distance from the game is nice. isolation is not. knowing the games of my two closest allies and myself are in the hands of a wannabe jonny fairplay

it’s not like any of this even matters though. he’ll win every immunity and have every idol regardless

i just don’t want him to win. that’s all

and regardless of what the game looks like upon my return

i’m never trusting a thing he says ever again

“jon [fairplay] lies, but sometimes he tells the truth” - darrah johnson

fuck the truth

i’ll never believe a thing

“i’m too busy with exams to do the challenge” and it’s like he knew what to do beforehand

and to clarify

i’m fine

i’m quite well haha

this isn’t like last night i’m not spiraling

i’ll be upset but not a loser if dino or corny go

but i am just stream of consciousness-ing my frustration at these circumstances

i just can’t catch a break

rehab btw!

guess who goes
correct: idol for one tribal
incorrect: lose vote
abstain: chill

i guessed dino goes. locked it in

why expect the best, this game just has not gone my way much at all lol

i just also can’t stand how soul just kinda brushes the stress the current nature of the game aside because “eh no one’s suicidal over it”

come on

i’m in a great spot in my life right now, life is good, i love myself and my life circumstances more than i have ever. this org doesn’t change that. you see me in person? i’ve got a smile on my face and tons of jokes to crack

the game is just aggravating and stressful

if it helps, i can just probably delete the app as long as im at rehab so i dont even have think about the game

@-Fio‼️ i’ll let you know if i delete the app while im at rehab, if that’s the case just dm me on instagram when im back

i’m fine but while i have the opportunity i might as well just take my eyes away from this

also

i’m not feeling mentally strained like i was

i’m fine

but

actually ykw

what i was going to say is that i am considering walking from the game

i’m just done with all the bullshit and i’m done being controlled by this guy

but here’s the thing

xsoul only has so much power and control because we let him

so why should we let him

why do any of us listen to what he has to say when we can all just

ignore him

let him yell

don’t even consider his opinion, don’t give any value to anything he has to say

let’s just be ten players with this one guy on the side who yells as we hear but don’t listen

let him win his little computer games and scavenger hunts

he only has this much power because we let him

don’t even vote him out

just keep him in a box and ignore him. and i’ll propose this to everyone once im back

the main reason i say this is because i know of multiple people left in the game that have discussed walking because of all the stress frustration bullshit et cetera

quas told me directly, i think corny told me faye and virgo were considering it

nvm faye told me herself that her and virgo were discussing walking

none of us would feel this affected over a stupid little social media game if not for this guy and his constant scheming

so let’s just

make him valueless by ignoring him. i hope the rest of the tribe sees the vision

i apologize to soul the person. not the player

jon dalton’s a great guy, i bet jonny fairplay was aggravating to deal with

and i’m sorry to katie as well because yk

we just all need to be done letting him control us

just to clarify i am fine i am okay i am mentally well if i was not i would say it outright you guys don’t need to be worried about me i promise promise promise

i can be a teeny weeny little bit overdramatic with my words to get a point out. i’m well, i’m just pissed

dawg i’m rlly taking discord way too seriously lol

i just need to

get myself together and play a calm game from here on out

i don’t want to be this loose crazy cannon because i’m not a crazy person, i hope

i just need to seriously take a chill pill and get it together so things can actually go my way

at the rate i’m going like

this isn’t good for me or anyone so

god i can only imagine what this one is doing

and soul already has it

i’m looking for it

i’ve done like 8 steps

i’d love to do the ignoring strategy but if i manage to get my hands on the idol

i have one

dino has one

and soul loses ONE challenge

it can be done

now lets hope in 3 hours, dino is still in the game, idol in pocket

ive spent 2 hours looking for this damn thing

just because i dont want soul to

ive been stuck on the same step of the idol search for hours

if any of my allies are around once i go back to the tribe imma need their help to steal the damn thing before soul gets it

t-1 hour

my goal is simply just

from here out

- strategic stability
- mental/emotional stability
- recovering from these last few messy rounds
- defeat xsoul one way or another

my core 3 is myself dino and corny

if that can be the final 3 im so happy, i know because of just myself intrinsically ill probably lose

corny is much larger of a threat than anyone realizes btw

he can win

itll be a survivor china-like ending if its myself/dino/corny, we all win really

if i dont have to be in mike preservation mode or dino preservation mode or corny preservation mode

i am more than okay with just

a deep breath in and taking a backseat. god knows i've earned it

so

mateo still in the game he caught at least something?

GREY GONE

WWOOOAHAHAHHHHH

wow

soul apparently got it

great man

fucking

wow

who is shocked not me

plan ignore soul initiates

i rlly gotta go to rocks for immunity

which

my luck

soul

faye is in on operation ignorance

this whole mike deathmarch against soul thing still kinda makes me feel like

a little guilty

soul's a great guy

i love chatting with him when it's not about the game

whether it be dead by daylight or our own lives

soul dropping the head shaking emoji when i asked him about rehab

i just wanted to know but im just

proving to myself why im done with this guy

should i lie about losing my vote

i think i might

THIS SUCKS XSOUL IS JUST SUCH A COOL GUY

but i want nothing more than for him to not win

deeeep convo with soul there man

it changes absolutely nothing gamewise

but i just

i need to pull back on the full on hater shit

he's a great guy he really is

i can't stand playing with him at all but

man

to clarify you still have it

bcs u said "let me not lock in"

thats what i mean

im contemplating telling people that i did lose my vote even though i didn't

final 10 locked in lol hell yeah man

having immunity is peak for my game i dont have to run circles and stress myself

no ones voting corny rn and dino has an idol

sit back relax and dont listen to soul

if we can get soul out i mean that's perfect and there's no more secure time to do it

ooooooooh shit

operation ignorance is a good idea but i'm feeling

like it's doable to take the shot

cornys going for the rehab picker thing

tbh i think riley or lezaria should go to rehab

i dont know how much i trust riley after i tried to vote her out

and like

i think i mostly have a pulse on where the dynamics in the game are at except for lezaria

i have absolutely zero read on her

at all

dude they actually banned epstein from xbox live for too much bullying

scary shit aside these files are crazy

epstein GOONED TO TOY CHICA

IM NOT KIDDING

… what

i do need to stop clipfarming in confessionals just to fuck with the spectators

im not kidding

oh

this is 100% true there was just other shit i was sayin in here that i just did for the meme

https://kotaku.com/jeffrey-epstein-five-nights-at-freddys-porn-via-4chan-links-emails-show-2000664667

in a way i’m glad this game got boring as fuck

however i am also at work bored as fuck before a dogshit rush

he's sending dino isn't he

oh

i really want to push operation ignorance

but i also might have to just

agh

idk

i dont know i dont know i dont know

someone snitched to soul

i’m going to go deal with bullshit at my job

i encourage you to watch survivor africa episode 9

i’m safe today but my game is in the grave after this

#itwasfun

i’ll respond to him once i reset the escape rooms but

i literally don’t even know what to do

…why do i lowkey have a tiny feeling soul is cheating jk

i like dont even care that dino apparently told soul about the sociopath comment

(again i dont actually #clipfarm)

she's obviously tryna figure her shit out

it happens

idk who snitched about operation ignorance though

if dino did that obviously on a game level makes me... really upset

not mad on a personal level she's playing her own game

but just like

fuuuuuuuuck

AND THE SPECTATOR LOUNGE EATS THEIR POPCORN AND GOSSIPS!!!

operation ignorance may be a squash

partially because i communicated it fucking horribly

this is

a weird story that i don't quite know how to tell

goddddd

i dont

i dont know what to do

i really dont

this is

absolutely an intense conversation

a soul searching conversation

no pun intended

woof

mike nation this is

looking

😄

if i want to win this game

i can't make

a single mistake

not any more mistakes

and honestly

i have no fucking clue where to start

i genuinely think i have to play the most perfect 8 tribals ever to have a chance

which

woof

do i really have to turn into a gamebot

it might just be the survivor rankdown brain in me honestly

it really is

shit man if i wanna win i’m gonna have to become the kind of character i get so bored and annoyed by watching on the tv

it’ll be a hell of a redemption character arc

i just

i don’t know

at this point

i don’t truly know where the trust lies

i feel like i fucked that up by being too emotional

and now i need to just

well i need to lock in, i absolutely need to do that

i just need to figure out how to play it calm and figure out where the trust lies on both ends

i have

zero zero zero clue on whether to bite the apple soul is offering me

i’m thankful i get to think of this decision while i’m safe but

i can’t map it all out immediately yk?

i just don’t know how to work up being trusted by everyone specifically when i don’t want to immediately get my shit clocked

i guess i have a new top ally in lezaria now? hell yeah??

like filling in for grey

i could deadass just do what soul said but with lezaria LMFAO

i have to hope i can trust lezaria here but

she apparently feels like she’s totally out of it on anything

so i think that’s a lifeline to open up

why not also try and pick up mateo as an ally tomorrow as well?

apparently faye virgo riley see me as expendable? fine

let me navigate the game just by opening up some more doors

and honestly i can still get out soul too while

abandoning messy emotional dramatic shit like operation ignorance

and just being like

“well, makes sense”

i don’t really think i need soul to do what he was saying he wants me to do honestly

in terms of how to deal with dino and corny down the line i’ll worry about that later

i love those two to death, they’re still my number ones

but i like what i’m hearing from lezaria

and i’d love to hear what mateo or even quas have to say

lezaria does feel pretty tight with the soul katie quas side of things so

idk it miiight wind up being like

it’ll wind up being one of faye virgo or riley

probably

which like

soul was all like “you’re expendable and usable to them blah blah blah” i don’t not buy it

i don’t fully buy all of what soul’s saying since it’s pretty blatant he’s just doing what he can to survive

and again i still would like xsoul out of this game asap

and he was like “use me as a shield please!” like there isn’t something underlying there, right?

but i mean

sure i’ll listen to him, who knows for how long

maybe

idk

i’m just opening up myself more as a free agent right now and

redefining who i am in this game

i really just have to play cerebrally instead of thinking about

my own emotions and friendships and connections and thinking about my story arc or how people feel about me or whatever

i just need to be the kind of player i hate watching on tv if i wanna win

but

touché

one does what one must yk

it’s hard, i’m an emotional guy. i have severe ocd on top of all this that. my ocd is more of a battle i’m having in this game than with goddamn xsoul

but the best players, like soul, can turn the switch off. say it’s just a game and act like it

and yk

i just have to like

lock the fuck in

and i’d like to at least hope that push comes to shove

the friendships i made in this org go beyond the game

say corny dino and i turn on each other down the line

i can’t let the fear of them doing that to me or the fear of me hurting them as people take over

maybe they have turned on me already, who truly knows who told soul about operation ignorance

corny and dino are rock solid with me as humans no matter what in this game

corny and i will show dino the glorious keith famie

and when all is said and done

there’s never been a better opportunity to get it together and save myself than now

just

enough of the whining and need for revenge and thinking about a plotline or saying dumb shit for the clipfarm

time to be a grown ass man. i can control my game without needing to do this operation ignorance bullshit

that said i’m not gonna stop some of the being funny if it doesn’t involve the game

ex.

last thoughts for the night

i don’t think soul is like

100% full of shit

but is it a good idea to buy what he’s trying to sell me? ehhhhhhh

to be determined

even if i don’t vote him out this round that isn’t like

fully buying into it

i dunno

many possibilities

dino prolly told soul everything didn’t she

ahhhhh shit

ah well

maybe he tried pulling off a similar pitch to her and it worked on her, i don’t know

i’ll def talk with dino and just try and get on the same page just in case

whatever i’m not trying to dig myself in

we shall see

well uhhhhhh

apparently i can’t make jokes anymore

i need to work on my tone when it comes to expressing my humor i’m well aware

but just

soul i swear to god

i just need to keep my cool

yeah i’m not gonna buy into soul’s pleads again

idk if he poisons me on the jury and just lies it’s just

so hard

it is

have i also not told soul that i have ocd

and that when i get one thought in my mind i have to act on a compulsion to make it go away

again forget operation ignorance or being mad or revenge or the stress thing or all this or whatever

i can say i tried to hear him out and it didn’t go super well

i also literally opened up “hey if we’re gonna work together here and squash it what would we do regarding it” and he stopped responding

so like

that’s kinda on him

“i’ve never lied to you” well you haven’t lied

but it’s just

like idk maybe don’t spin me making a joke about what fio said at chilis as me being a weirdo as part of strategy

and don’t rope me trying to hide my alliance with dino into that specifically?

it’s just like

reminding me of what i don’t want to trust him

i need to stop making jokes as a way of trying to make my unwanted overthinking thoughts leave my mind and that’s something i have to actively get better at, life wise and game wise

but it’s just

come on man

i’ll take the jokes i make to deal with my ocd thoughts to the notes app and away from the actual internet obviously

just as a general thing i have to do for myself

like obviously i’ll work on it

but

https://tenor.com/view/jonah-hill-frustrated-wolf-of-wall-street-annoyed-smh-gif-9553858

i can’t even let myself get upset at this because i don’t want it to become like

a big deal

game wise unfortunately i’m just probably gonna have to distance myself from dino

which sucks but like

what are you gonna do

genuinely

it’ll be better once soul is gone obviously but

in terms of where my head’s at i feel like i’m in a better spot than what he’s trying to sell me and that i know the work i have to do

but that said it’s just like. i just keep allowing this guy to upset me and why am i staying in this situation

i’m considering walking again

because it’s like why do i keep letting this dude piss me off when i have a lot of shit to do

you know what bro during that whole thing soul called me a loser

i don’t think i’m being a big paranoid emotional crybaby if i like don’t wanna work with a guy like that

yk?

shit idk if i wanna do this with immunity but like

odds are i just walk now

honestly

because i’m just burnt out on bothering with all this bullshit

i’m trying so hard to keep my mindset on the game as left brained as possible but it’s hard to do that!

like it takes two clicks of a button for me to remove myself from something that’s stressing me out and if i were to talk to people in my day to day life they’d ask why i haven’t quit yet

i’m not saying i’m doing it right now but like

shit man

it’s really hard to try and focus and lock in after the things he’s said about me and to me

it’s really hard

and if he’s not gone i just really don’t know how much i can take

i don’t want him throwing everything he can at the wall to drive a wedge between dino and i

i joke around about it because my brain tricks me into thinking that people think otherwise

but dino and i are like

family

i feel the need to clarify again just because my brain won’t let me convince myself that people understand

nothing between her and i in that way, i don’t have any feelings, etc

this is unbearable

it really is

i’m really just trying my best to control my own game here and i can’t

it’s getting to the “no matter what i do i feel powerless” point

i want to be as locked in as possible so bad and win but for the sake of my mental health i don’t know how much more i can push it and justifiably/truthfully say that i’m fine

like this is bordering on unhealthy for me right now i’m honestly leaning on the side of just protecting my own health there

and honestly the game is sort of starting to taint my thoughts and feelings on survivor itself. a game i’ve loved for a decade

and the last week is souring me on it

i don’t wanna lose my love for this show and game over a situation that i theoretically can remove myself from

i thought i was figuring out a path to playing a winning game and like

i still technically am

but what am i supposed to do if he’s on the jury even

like genuinely

this is what i’m supposed to do

if i do walk

corny and dino just gotta know they can and should trust lezaria

if i’m on the jury i am poisoning the fuck out of soul btw

and i can just boil it down to “he tried to accuse me of being a pervert to benefit his game”

i don’t even know why he’s doing this man i’m immune

this just

isn’t fun

i’m not having fun

and then soul feels morally righteous for being the guy having fun

this game just is not fun and i’m close to calling it

honestly

like at some point i just have to make a mature decision regarding what’s best for me

and the fact that he always finds a way to loophole everything when it comes to challenges and idols it’s just

how are the rest of us supposed to compete

also shit is getting like

ugly ugly to the point where if i remove myself i could come to a possible conclusion that the season overall will benefit if this

cloud is removed

i really don’t know if i can do this anymore

it’s just not fair

it’s not

at all

let’s face it

i can’t catch a break

and at this point

when can i anticipate that i will

if it’s just another problem tribal even when i have the necklace on then like

when

yeah the idea of framing me as a fucking perv

i don’t want to call soul a bully but

god

this is miserable

its honestly beyond wanting him out i’m just like

i need to de invest

yk

idk to me that comment just goes well beyond the scope of the game and into the territory of “dude, really?”

i’ll make my decision once i chat with dino about the situation, i already chatted with corny

of all people i wound up discussing aspects of the situation with my parents along with my busy schedule

and they told me they were proud of me and that i was awesome

so that’s a pickup, it truly is

i’m not quite sure if soul wants me to quit

doubt but

#deleted-channel exists now aight

still deliberating walking because of just the strain

but if we know for sure he can go

there's validity to soul's concerns about the faye virgo riley trio

but especially with soul gone ya know

dude i just

can't have an aggressive conversation with this guy all day every day

i don't wanna be phillip'd either man

hey soul

don't tell me what game i'm playing

you may think you know me

but you don't man

you just don't

combo of soul just being so fucking exhausting to talk to in any way shape or form

and getting cursed out by customers at work

i just

this is why i'm debating walking

i'm a busy guy in real life who does a lot

i can't let this guy exhaust me out

just the way he speaks to me about my game it's like

do you want to work with me?

do you really want to work with me?

and i'm really not lying to the guy right now

like who have i spoken to

corny, riley...?

well

lezaria

but if he knows i spoke to lezaria then that's just proof of who i can and can't trust

he doesn't

he thinks i've been chatting away with riley virgo and faye

...where the fuck even are virgo and faye?

i'm still weighing every option right now

- go full throttle and take the shot
- divert and see where things fall otherwise
- walk from the game to de-stress myself

i think soul being out of the game with the everything about that will absolutely calm me down, and i have several options from there

at this point i'm not even gonna bank on taking corny and dino to the end because like

at the end of the day the two of them are smart people

yk

i've got a lot of game left to play and contrary to what he says it's not optimal for me to have him there

plus if soul goes

katie is a reasonable person

she'll get it

also like

he's just obviously a threat, and he's not a good shield just because he's fucking impossible to talk to sometimes

just take the shot

i don't think dino is talking to me right now

oh god

oh god oh fuck

please don't tell me he convinced her

i mean if he did that's like

you know

running with a false assumption with malicious intent locks in me quitting

like there's no shot i stay in the game if soul killed my friendship with her

he didn't convince her thank god

again i'm so not trying to play emotionally and i think xsoul going is ultimately the best option for my game

i can play the game soul told me he thinks i can and should play without him

but like

idk getting called a good boy and a loser and just bringing up my lack of experience with women

and trying to convince dino that i'm a pervert is

like come on dude

there's a line to how much i can take

i mean any respect i have for him as a person that i tried to keep maintaining

dead

like

dead

worst case scenario he's tanked his jury chances with the shit he said about myself and dino so

tribal cancelled??

DAWG THE ONE DAY I HAVE THE NECKLACE

THE ONE DAY SOUL WOULD BE DEAD MEAT

BRRRUHHHHHHH

I GOTTA KEEP DOING TS

oh shit

quas

awwww 🙁

alright

my main goal for right now is just

i don't even know

really tryna pick up lezaria and mateo

and i don't know what the actual fuck to do with soul

at all

well we have the sixy seven + lezaria katie soul still left in the game

priority is still getting out soul then probably one of faye virgo and riley

i'm just hoping things don't get ugly but i'm not optimistic

touchy subjects NOW????

oh

nope things are for sure getting ugly

https://tenor.com/view/dumpsterfire-flooding-fail-gif-9420889858387127994

Live look in at Fiovivor

(it really isnt)

(i dont wanna do this to fio but oh boy this challenge isnt gonna help how im feeling in the game)

(at all)

why assume the guy is gonna listen to this

he always finds away to get away with whatever the fuck he wants

it's just unfair

it's unfair

i'll keep bitching even though i can't show that to any of my tribemates outside of me being furious at the way he talks about be

i also fully buy that he knows how to workaround the snitch clause

like what is there to even do

soul's also gotta have something from katie

dropped the most pessimistic ass touchy subjects answers

i detached myself from the game itself heavy for a while

why haven't i been doing ts all along

i feel good

i knew that i would nooooow

i feeeeeeel good good good

i knew that i would nooowwww

so good

so good

i got you

https://tenor.com/view/james-brown-dancing-split-i-feel-good-feel-good-gif-11343030

i am in quite the state of shock at these answers

real people think i’m in control? they trust me with their life? nobody’s cut my rope just yet?

i thought i’d be shit on but hmmm

maybe soul is just an asshole

or

an ass-soul

https://tenor.com/view/jschlatt-21-schlatt-laughing-gif-1164146261389506103

nvm i cant read im not in control

this is apparently a disaster for everyone… but me? maybe?

soul will still probably make me a problem because duh but

#thegirlsarefighting

corny why the fuck did you do that

now i gotta tell everyone you used random.org

unfortunately corny vs faye and virgo is like really good for soul's game

fortunately, dino has two idols

so soul can go

did soul tell corny that faye had already thrown out his name

which like might be a lie

and that's why corny did that

ohhhhh

thats

whoops

alright time to try and leverage faye to get her to ease up on corny and just fucking do away with soul already

soul told me that it's time to start making moves on my own and not follow people

well thanks to him, i've done my soul searching

and if corny's the push? it is a move on my end to get soul out of the game!

again i just

i cannot do it with soul

i had therapy today and explained the entire game to my therapist

lol

fiovivor hit the therapy towers

i dont kid when i say it helped me feel so much better about the game

and you know what

i just cant let the things soul said to me about my own game to heart because he's wrong about me

he's wrong about how he perceives faye and virgo

they're good kids but they're... definitely kids, neither super active

if anything faye and virgo are following my plans

listen i could wind up taking them to the end and beating them who knows

but that's ways away

i do hate to say i don't think i can go to the end with dino if i'm in win mode but like

4/5

sure

@-Syn | {S9} also sorry that the season is "boring" but as things stand right now it will either be boring or ugly and i'd rather it be boring while there's still the chance it can get ugly 🥀

i like barely met you blud you seem nice

i dont think this vote is going to be boring though

faye and virgo at the least are making it exciting

i like them this is just survivor gotta take advantage

but i gotta do it with good sportsmanship unlike some people (who don't realize they're being bad sportsman)

as far as soul's concerned fwiw im just keeping up appearances

i hope i can trust riley when she says she wants soul out

i dont trust her long term but for like

for this one vote i might have to just take the risk and bank on it

and then i cut her, i don't think the bridge is fully rebuilt between her and i and that's risky for sure

its quiet

eh

a lot of its corny being asleep faye having her 5 minutes of being on the internet already today

virgo napping

dino asleep too

where in the balls is soul though

apparently katie said yesterday he's burning out with the org and barely talking to anyone but like

who knows

it could be bad news for me but i lowk cant think too hard about that

either soul is spreading all the bullshit rn or he's just kinda

burnt out

idk im voting for him no matter what lol

yeah i think soul just isn't talking to me

oh smell

i lowkey think i’m boutta get blindsided tonight but i’ll ignore that

business will carry on as usual

and if i get voted out oops

i want the ppl at ftc with me to include two of corny lezaria and virgo

maybe faye

6 hours to go and #what

i wanna take the soul shot we will see how practical it is

dino's idols will lowk make that happen if anything

i just don't want my minimal chat rn with soul to turn into a thing

i just walked myself into another exhausting soul conversation

🥀

#ohwell

ended quickly thank god

if i have to tell soul "literally how would i be able to get you out if i tried, i won't have the numbers" i'm not even gonna be lying man

lowkirkenuinely i’ve got a shot at pulling a 4-3-2

like holy shit i do

soul: me corny dino riley
faye or virgo: katie soul mateo
corny: faye virgo

yo dude what

i can actually pull off some crazy shit right now

or it just winds up 7-2 soul if faye and virgo lock in

but either way if i get away with orchestrating this one

i have something under my name

i snipe the biggest threat in the game and my #1 opp

i’d just rather it specifically wind up 4-3-2 because it’d be peak

there’s a low chance it goes wrong but if it does dino plays an idol and faye or something goes

or soul!

i just need to hope i’m making the right decision trusting riley

or well i guess faye wants soul anyways

well it’ll be soul anyways

apparently soul fucking hates me passionately

and i guess is willing to ya know

go full character assassination with it

and he hates corny

according to faye

so

i just don’t want shit to get ugly because it definitely can

my therapist told me if it gets even worse i shouldn’t feel bad if i walk from the game. i doubt ill have to but im filled with dread

no matter the result of this tribal i'm just blocking soul

FUCK this guy

obviously he stalked my socials like everyone else's on hour 1 of the game so

i worry the degree in which he'll take things, who says he's gonna stop at false pervert accusations

i don't know the degree in which he knows about the whole situation with my "ex" a year ago. my ocd loves trolling me telling me he's going to utilize that next

i can't compulsively act upon that unwanted and 99.9% unsubstantiated thought/worry

but the least i can do is just send him packing and never talk to him again

i feel so bad for katie

soul has to realize this kind of behavior is why everyone is emotional, exhausted, not trying, walking from the game

i know he knows this

i'm just telling everyone what soul said about me

i don't care

at all

at this point i'm just so

whatever man

im also pretty sure his replies to me in the tribal chat were insults but i'm not gonna bother reading into it

there are many more venomous things i can say about soul but frankly if i did

i'd be wasting my time

i don't even know how comfortable i am with both him and myself being in the server honestly

it's just that bad

i want to play this game cerebrally, logically, and winnably

but at this point i'm just so disgusted and uncomfortable

i just can't fucking do it

once he's gone i know the path

me/corny/virgo is the ideal f3, open to lezaria or maybe faye being there too

cant have riley katie mateo dino there or i will #lose

its still insane that soul was so adamant that faye and virgo were using me they have like no power

oh well

if i do wind up walking i also might opt out of being on the jury

just because of the whole situation

especially if soul talks his way into everything just like

aughghhhhh

i think soul is pushing corny as a means of not getting sniped

faye i swear to fucking god

actually yeah soul pushing corny makes sense

anyways here are my astronomy notes

looks like dino is just gonna idol herself because we truly don't know the approach of the others

and just hope and pray

fuckit man

no clue where the chips fall tonight

hoping for the best expecting the worst during my 5:00 bathroom break

i hate that it’s probably gonna turn into a katie vote

god dammit

i can’t even be mad if corny goes atp considering he’s like

probably a double agent snitch

i’m genuinely dreading the aftermath of this

soul isn’t going bc of fucking course he isn’t

thankfully i’m not shoutout england

so i’m safe no matter what

…do i tell corny that the vote switched to katie so that katie gets idoled

and im the soul vote that counts

i’m so tempted i have 20 minutes to decide

i asked dino if i should

i’ll have to worry about corny after this vote

sorry katie

dino i swear to god

if you play it on yourself

and i’m the one who goes

alright

here we go

katie goes

i should have

corny i swear to fucking god

soul sybau

i’m gonna vomit

brb crying in a bathroom stall

ok wtf

that’s a little too far

what’s the goddamn point of this game

i also can’t believe he’s accusing me of lying about what he said to dino

and i feel so goddamn bad for playing corny like that

i can’t give in and quit

that fuels his game

it’s what he wants

exactly how i’m fine with it

i’m listening to this 100%. will he?

i mean the game will never be the same

i’m detached and don’t give a fuck about winning right now

until my spark for the game reignites somehow i’m just gonna go through the motions and be lazy as fuck until i either go home or make final tribal and stop trying

fucking hypocrite from mr. “it’s only a game” to say this too

fuck this guy i hope he gets broken up with

mike drop

he doesn’t even believe what he’s saying here

he literally said that shit to me AS STRATEGY

AS STRATEGY AS STRATEGY AS STRATEGY

this game is a miserable distressing nightmare and i don’t even think i can say this experience was worth it even if i overcome everything and triumph as the winner

fuck survivor

i’m not letting these events kill my love for the show

they have killed my interest in going on the show until i’m older and more mature

i’m gonna compliment soul

i hate him passionately but idk man he beat kowareta

google doc coming in the AM

i’m going to watch eraserhead for class

i missed a screening of the elephant man for tribal

i told danny about this whole situation before class

he told me i HAVE to watch the elephant man before i start the challenge

that was the best advertisement for condoms i’ve ever seen

context - at the elephant man screening i missed, i walked into danny red in the face burst out in tears, i quickly filled him in on what happened, he immediately turned to me and said that this situation was david lynch telling me to watch the elephant man lol

watching david lynch’s entire filmography in one week will make you sound like you’re a weirdo

@-Mike | {S9} can u explain the movie in survivor or fortnite terms

eraserhead?

yes

uh

i don't think i can do that

for any lynch film

uhhhhhh

NOOOOOOOO

movies directed by david lynch are basically impossible to describe

uh

hmmmmm

like maybe bruce on 45 but like highkey not at all

bad comparison it's just the main thing i can think of with someone coping with fatherhood

like i can't explain it in survivor terms

the kindness challenge

man

corny and dino are brother and sister

i love those guys so much

i need time to process that

fuck man

did this dude ALSO watch the elephant man last night?

which btw that shit was so sad i had to listen to abba for like 2 hours before i could fall asleep

a paragraph i'm not forgetting.

there are many pieces of media that surround testing friendships, kindness, animosity

putting as many demons to the side as possible despite irreperable damage

survivor palau

the elephant man

heathers lmfao

ykw i gotta thank soul for all this mess in a way

what he did to me was nothing compared to mara and what he did to me also hurt to the point where i'm just straight up over mara LOL

the early merge of fiovivor being complete hell helped my get over my ex nightmaresuationship hell yeah man

man.

there's also just something about this dark period in the game completely coinciding with me starting my david lynch class, binging his movies, and falling in love with his empathy, artistry and humanity

these last 10 days have changed me

a lot

if any of the spectators think this season is a boring merge

you are so so wrong

survivor's a game that does so many things to the mind, spirit, psyche

the body too but this is on the big #internet and not irl so who cares about that lol

for the first time in a long time in this game, i feel

peace

truly

i could care less about what my reputation in the game is

and of course the dino thing has to be addressed, i'm sure soul and i can talk that out

once that's tossed to the side

i can breathe

no matter if i win or go out next

and you know what this calls for

i think if i really detail how obsessive compulsive disorder affects me to soul he'll understand

god hamilton to

"forgiveness, can you imagine"

i don’t know if this challenge needs a winner

that wouldn’t feel right

inland empire.

man if i make it to final tribal council my speech is gonna be like half about david lynch half about the game

what a transformative nine days

for all the inland empire im going through right now

im thinking about the ending of heathers a lot

after all the trauma bullying and bullshit

veronica, martha, and heather mac all put everything aside and plan to watch the princess bride

maybe now that all of this has happened we can just

go back to playing dead by daylight

laughing in the public vcs

being able to just

have fun

go back to before this death of innocence experience that was the syn tribal onward

im calming down after all this

whew

that was a profound 24 hours

‼️ SINGLE DIGITS CONFESSIONAL QUESTIONS (EP. 12)
1.) YOU made single digits on S9 of Fiovivor amdist a merge of burnout, tension, and ghosting as well as a chaotic last tribal 5-4-1 vote. How are you feeling in the game? Do you think you have a good chance to win?
2.) What does your game plan look like for this mid-merge? Do you have an ideal boot order moving forward or are you taking it round-by-round?
3.) Could you give everybody in the game a grade on their gameplay this season? (A+, B-, C, D, F, etc) Who would you vote and not vote to win?
4.) Drop a trust rankings PRETTY PLEASE.
5.) If you had an idol, who are you 8-1’ing out of the game?
@Alive Player

1) 2) 3) 4) 5)

i can’t give any rational thoughts about the game right now. i don’t know when i’ll be able to. after the last 27 hours, i can’t think game, i can’t talk game, i can’t breathe game. it’s all a series of unknowns. a series of trying to navigate others and myself. a series of trying to forgive others and myself. this game is effectively on pause for me mentally as long as i can

i am burnt out and drained, i’m not sure of my motivations at this point

i am not sure if i can even win a jury vote after all that has happened

if my time in the game is up soon, i want to go out with one thing

forgiveness

not only being forgiven but

forgiving others

forgiving soul

but most importantly

forgiving myself. not just from this game, but from all my mistakes in life

and if this journey ends with a newfound sense of self love

not that i feel like “i won something here”, because at the end of the day i’ll still have lost survivor

but i come out of this experience a better person

and i can be at peace with my fiovivor journey

what david lynch and ocd do to a mf

and listen

the odds of me winning aren’t a flat 0

i just can’t bring myself to think about how i could make that happen right now

i just don’t want me distancing myself from strategy (i lowkey failed at locking in on that oops) to lead to me getting dragged to ftc. i’d rather be voted out beforehand to spare myself the bludgeoning that 0 vote finalists get

oh well

bro 2 more weeks of this

come on

lezaria played dbd with my irls and mateo might too

LMFAOOOOOOO

i cannot stop reading that apology.

idk what it is man

surreal surreal surreal shit

everythings felt surreal

riley mateo and corny have all tried talking game and like

i cant comprehend

i was kickstarting my own apology using my experience in the game coinciding with my viewings of inland empire and the straight story

i need to hit the google docs

soul’s saying riley

not like i trust soul at all strategically even despite the healing

i’m more inclined to feel relaxed and less urgent and shit maybe riley going out now instead of like

idk mateo?

or they could vote me out i’d be fine

this would be a very okay boot episode for me

i’m content with my journey despite the fact that i’d obviously love to be the winner

but i don’t wanna do that to dino and corny and also lezaria

if riley is #toast and there's nothing i can do i'm going to tell her outright

i just

i feel so bad

dino wants mateo im down for that i just

idk about corny

and idk if dino wants to drop her idol on riley of all people

itd prolly just be her or myself that gets idoled but prolly herself

just because if i get voted out its like

whatever ive kinda had my character arc fulfilled maybe

virgo threw out lezaria auaaghhhhh

if im going tn i don't want it to be a blindside

dino should save it for herself

i'm fine with going

i'd rather just put votes on mateo and go to rocks

soul apparently lost out in the idol by milliseconds, someone has it, it's been replanted

eh

idc

soul is throwing around riley, eh, sure, idc

bro could i like

genuinely be thrown in the middle here

uggghhhhh

the one round where i'm like fuck this i'm fine if i go i'm the kingmaker maybe possibly

survivor is so silly and goofy and irritating

i don't want to vote out anyone who can get voted out

i'll prolly just write down riley honestly, if it's her it's her and i'll let her know

i can’t even think about the game for 2 seconds without wanting to log off and i deadass have a winning path

bruh idk

i’ll write mateo so it ties idk

ill try and make it mateo to avoid a tie

idk

tbh as long as i get lezaria

and if its mateo ill be honest and tell him

id rather mateo im not voting separately from dino this early

that's for later on

someone voted dino?

oh well

thousand percent willing to go to rocks for her

never trusting soul again obviously

never gonna believe a word that comes out of his mouth

yk

strategic wise yk

LOLLLLLL AHAHAHAHAHAHAH

AAAAAHAHAHAHAHAH

HAHAHAHAHAHA

AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAA

MY ENDGAME PLANS ARE DEAD BABY WOO

congrats on surviving rocks! this is something i could not do 😂

I WISH I DIDNT ITD BE SO FUNNY

MATEO HAS AN IDOL

DINO HAS AN IDOL

XSOUL DOESNT HAVE AN IDOL!

XSOUL LOSES IMMUNITY

HE GONE!

❤️

godddddd i hope soul doesn't win

lowkey if i just go to the end with like

corny lezaria mateo all options

just because the only enemies on the jury id have in that case are like

soul and katie

which are definitely #huge but

i mean

yk

if i lose to any of them eh i'll live, and if i can't get dino out at 5/4 oh well im happy to lose to her too

like i know dino... beats everybody

probably

my guess is that win equity rn is

dino > riley > katie > lezaria > mateo > corny

and i dont have any way of judging myself or soul

soul could sweep or be 0 votes idk

trust

dino > riley > lezaria > kill me

i guess the rest would be uh

corny > mateo > katie > soul

idk

i haaaaate that i cant trust corny anymore even if i have to try

shit i think soul won

if he did then like

target is def katie but they know that and so does mateo

and idk what mateo wants or what corny wants

or even what riley wants especially if soul is just

safe

if i’m the target i don’t want dino to waste her idol on me

i’m a vote for her but

she can win with an underdog narrative as well

i love survivor

is it safe to just stick with soul until he's vulnerable

because i think it might be

do i have any actual belief in #deleted-channel

no

do i have any actual belief that soul is being truthful

no

watch he fuckin votes out corny

that would be a huge blow to my endgame plans

shit is it riley tonight

that sucks dude

like i know people want soul but i’m not gonna expect fuckin

corny or lezaria to vote out katie here

…that’s the hope

dino could also just play her idol

but is that smart?

katie is like

now that i think about it

might be the biggest threat in the game

because they don’t trust soul

they trust her

i just have to hope i’m not being punk’d when it comes to #deleted-channel

watch i come up with all this the day i’m going

but i have a plan the rest of the way

8 - katie
7/6 - riley/soul
5 - mateo
4 - dino (she’d be 4 but i wanna win FIC and put myself in fire because that’d be aura farming hype moment)

i know everyone beats corny and i’m pretty sure i can beat lezaria

a lot of this hinges on being able to convince corny and lezaria to do katie here

if i can 5-3 katie out without putting an idol back in the game man…

i’m gonna have to talk about dino’s idol as leverage but

everyone knows anyways

looks like lezaria is gonna have to be convinced

im gonna lowkey have to pull the "katie is the silent mastermind" half truth on lezaria to get this done

because i REALLY want it to happen without an idol

this is the right time to kick my game into high gear

i hate #bigmovz but

if that's what juries value

plus me just being likable hopefully

ppl are awake but not talking to me #ikwhatsup

LOL

LEZARIA'S IN

CORNY'S IN

OOOOOKAY IT MIGHT BE ON THE VERGE OF HAPPENING

IM HOLDING MY BREATH

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE

FOR THE LOVE OF GOD

THIS BETTER WORK

also corny wants a f3 with myself and lezaria

#bingo

he wants mateo f4, i want dino f4

if i don't win i really want it to be dino, and my dream is that dino and i make fire

if she has to has to has to go at 5 so be it

plus if that f3 is corny lezaria mateo the jury would noooooot be happy

i think they'd at least be happy to vote for me

i love all three of them but obviously they're just

not

yk

i didn't think lezaria was floater status for a while but she also did just say "i wait to see what soul and katie tell me what to do"

so

#deleted-channel pleeeeease don't target dino please please please please please

lezaria please please please do not target dino

if it's 5-3 katie-dino i'll fucking

be so happy

but hopefully it's more apparent that katie going/soul getting weakened/dino not playing her idol is important

like im not even lying when i tell lezaria that dino is doable at any time

CORNY AND LEZARIA PLEEEEEASE STOP HESITATING AHAGHGHGHHHH

it's over

it's just over dude

i got

fucked

katie just won survivor

@-Fio‼️ open up camp

also i love corny and lezaria dearly but neither of them are winning survivor

i am more incentivized to have them in the final 3 just because even though i've failed a lot in this game

i can say i tried to fucking play this goddamn game

a corny lezaria mateo final 3 would be

ohhhh brother

good lord

i'm pissed man my #1 ally is gone

i can't trust corny anymore

like

how could i possibly expect to trust him and follow through on "we'll get soul and katie out trust!"

well now that i don't have full trust in literally anybody i'm just yappin the truth

and like i told katie i do truly think i'm either next, 5th, or winning

whatever i've spent this entire merge fighting and crawling by the skin of my teeth and losing all my allies, i just need to make sure neither katie or riley for sure make ftc

and obviously not soul either but there's also a chance people are just like

fuck that guy

i just need to be the one to take credit for pulling the goddamn trigger

lowkey honestly

if riley goes at 7 and corny lez mateo FINALLY flip, katie and soul 6/5

that’s ggs

win equity rn prolly

katie
riley
soul
myself
mateo
lezaria
corny

the winner will either be me riley or soul fwiw

and if not then like idfk whichever of the bottom 3 do something

katie could win actually but if her and soul win out she just loses fire unless soul throws

FUCK AFTER ALL THIS I THINK I WIN THE GAME LOL

because if soul and katie finally go

i have the others more than riley

and it’s just down to comps

it’s also just beneficial that i now know precisely what the jury wants

that being soul and katie getting voted out

honestly? i think i can beat soul in a final 3

and i don’t wanna get cocky but at least ill put up a fight against riley but thats not happening

on paper if this is my winning game it is a really bad one

but like

aggghhhhhhh

i need one of the two of them to go out at 7

like

i just

i shouldn’t need to keep repeating myself but

those 3 are making it impossible

adam klein levels of win

when i think about it

corny is ken

and lezaria is hannah shapiro lol

corny's trying to initiate a 3-2-2 split vote plan

which if someone other than katie or soul wins immunity is foolproof

which like

yay im down

suddenly that brings corny's win equity up

mateo in my final 3 looking mighty fine

ohhhh myyyyy goddddd i think soul is finally going home tomorrow

it's like christmas eve

that siad

said

im not gonna try and frame it as such

but this could just be corny's plan

so he might have to be the one to go at 4

and my f3 are lezaria and mateo

fitting since i play dbd with them and my irls

@-Fio‼️ i told corny that you love all stars and edge of extinction

he respects

WE R TALKING ABT IT RN

BAHAHAHA

WDYM ALL STARS IS HIS LEEAAASSSTTT FAVORITEEEE

YOU AND CORNY

AHAHAHAHA

oh uh

a lot of rankdowners hate all stars

cringe

character assassinations

like wdym the literal god of survivor molested his best frenemy #killingmyself

kathy is also sneaky awful on all stars

DOES MATEO NOT HAVE IT

KMS

IM GOING TO FUCKING

BROOOOOOO

my winning chances are taking a shit right now

I WISH I COULD FUCKING SAY I LIED ABOUT MATEO HAVING AN IDOL FOR THE SAKE OF THE GAME

SADFJASKDHFAKSDHFKASDHFA

All Stars is extremely bad to me because there's just an extremely dour feeling over everything that I just don't find engaging to watch, plus the way a lot of the players handle situations like the Jenna M quit and the Richard/Sue stuff is disgusting

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

I WON IMMUNITY

I WON IMMUNITY

I WON IMMUNITY

FUCK

YEAH

MOTHER

FUCKER

SOUL IS DEAD

kathy underratedly disgusting in the jenna quit

"She was like a cancer on this tribe" or whatever she said when her mother was literally dying from cancer 💀 💀 💀 💀 💀 💀 💀 💀 💀

YEAH

she’d be like the worst character ever if not for having one of the best ftc speeches ever

Yeah, her jury speech props her up a bit

and then obviously the way B. Rob, Rupert, & Big Tom talk about the Sue situation is bottom of the barrel

big tom gets a pass since he like

didn’t know the gravity of the situation

I'm not really sure if I can give that benefit there, but to each their own

eh it’s big tom

i mean this competitively not personally anymore

but good lord this is gonna feel so good

this is finally the first tribal council where i'm actually gonna

get my way

i've been waiting to do this since he joined the rankdown server and clocked me and corny

#adios

talking with lezaria and corny about the final 3

i'm worried they're gonna take credit for what i've been thinking for days

so why not switch it up and like

obviously i want that final four of me corny lezaria mateo

the strat is win final immunity and either just take mateo or put myself in fire and take out corny

i want corny out at 4

"pearl islands assignments" im lowkey sandra

not a great game on paper but awesome as fuck (i'm not as awesome as sandra lol i just like to pretend to make myself feel good)

beefing with people and still getting jury votes

i hope i can convince soul if/when the time comes

sandra got fucking fairplay's jury vote

oh and fairplay is soul LFMAO

LMFAO

sandra - mike
lill - corny
fairplay - soul
darrah - riley
burton - katie
christa - lezaria
tijuana - mateo

the final 7 literally lines up

and also dino - rupert

mateo could also like lowkey be ryno though LMFAO

ryno is fucking hilarious

Player Borneo Outback Africa Marquesas
Corny Gervase KEITH FAMIE Big Tom Sean
Katie Rudy Tina Kim P. Neleh
Lezaria Colleen Elisabeth Ethan Vecepia
Mateo Dr. Sean Amber Frank THE GENERAL
Mike Sue Jerri Lex Tammy
Riley Jenna Rodger Kim J. Kathy
xSoul Hatch Colby Kelly Paschal

HELL YEAH MAN

dont worry nobody gets ted ❤️

PLEASE GOD

PLEASE GOD

PLEASE GOD

they want riley before katie

honestly fine

like

honestly

maybe

agh idk

we'll just have to see which option is more optimal. or katie just goes tonight

i swear to fucking god if riley goes tonight

i swear i swear i swear i swear

riley just gave me the "she votes me to win no matter what" drop

❤️

if this goes wrong

if mateo or lezaria fuck this up

i swear to god

i swear to god

WHAT

WHAt

WHAT

WHAT

WHAT

WAHT

CORNY WENT HOME DUDE?!?!?!

what

the

FUCK

mateo dude...

lezaria?

riley voted soul dude ugh my god

lezaria

lezaria played your ass dude auaugughghhh

AND THEYRE STILL ALIVE

CAN I PLEASE FUCKING KILL MYSELF NOW LOL

riley and mateo you guys are

fuckingi

idiots

i beat everyone here at final tribal council fuck you

clearly i'm the only one with an actual goddamn spine left on this beach

or

hollywood studio

or

god dammit man

i guess lezaria has a spine too but

jhfsadkjfaskjdfg

like

it's probably me and riley going next!

oh god if it's a katie soul mateo final 3 i might just walk out

I HAVENT HAD A SINGLE SUCCESSFUL TRIBAL AND WE'RE AT 6 DUDE LMFAOOO

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE LET ONE OF THEM FINALLY FUCKING GO NEXT TIME DUDE

OH MY GOD

AND I SWEAR TO GOD

IM NEXT!

soul wins this challenge he finds an idol plays it on katie and they just pick whoever goes blah blah blah this season fucking sucks

i tried

i've been doing everything i can and these people just can't stop being goddamn spineless

like what the hell

do i just go to the end with soul and katie now

he’s russell she’s parv i’m sandra

underdog final tribal narrative whatever man

i’ve suffered so much

and i’m still here

honestly fuckit

i want to think i have a case against everyone left in the game besides maybe riley

as long as it isn’t me

i don’t give a fuck who goes

i know for sure i have riley dino and corny’s votes to win no matter what

if it’s me soul katie

i have the three of them

i have lezaria

i probably have virgo and faye too

soul/katie have quas mateo

i might have grey

who gaf about fazz

AFTER ALL THIS TIME DO I HAVE TO FUCKING FLIP TO SOUL AND KATIE

i can’t fucking talk to mateo man

what an idiot

me soul mateo f3 would be hysterical oh my god

really just as long as i’m not sitting next to riley

i win

and even then i can beat riley by using her fuckup this vote

as a case

mateo is such a fucking spineless dipshit dude

oh my god

man i definitely get idoled out if i don’t flip on riley

or lezaria does

you know what mateo is

you know what mateo fucking is

https://tenor.com/view/survivor-survivor-48-mitch-mitch-guerra-finger-gif-17994043296009817126

that’s all i gotta say man

soul and katie are a combo of russell and parvati and joe and eva

like